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Written on Friday, January 16, 2009 @ 5:12 PM
What's with people nowadays? Rushing into relationship & stuffs. I noticed that teenagers my age, below & above, will tend to find one. Then, for a freaking short period of time, they claim that they are fated to be together. Like, how would they know? Ok fine. This is a totally random post.
My new year resolution is to focus on my studies & not let anything get along the way. I am not interested in boys & relationships anymore. Not the right time.
Unfortunately, problems came up. Ok, I am fine with that. & I'm really hoping we would all get over it. Another thing is, I want to find a job! Damn it. I need one, desperately.
So, they got fed up, they said this. "OK, I'll be honest with you! Would you love to be my life time partner?" & bomb! I was dumb-founded. I seriously don't know what else to say. It's not that I don't have any feelings for them. I do. But, I just don't feel like getting into relationships for now. Sorry. I was forced to act. I am sorry if you guys thought I was playing with your heart. But all these is unexpected. I really didn't know that it would turn out this way. Having a scandal is already such a burden for me. In school, its like I am playing hide & seek. I see him, I hide. He see me, I hide. Terrible.
The most heartbreaking moment was to find out, after not getting what he wanted, he proceeded to Effah. Fuck you! Ok, this is a different guy. While this another different guy is so caring towards you. But you forced yourself not to like anyone. I really cried. Tsk. Me & Effah thought, why have a boyfriend when we can have tons & tons of boy friends without getting anyone jealous? She said, "This is the reason why I don't wanna get into relationships unless I am really ready to face everything. & I won't accept him, not even give him my number. I know you like him." At least she knows I am the type of girl who don't go for guys who likes your friends or otherwise. Then, I said, "No, its okay. Guys will be guys. Just go if you want." & she replied instantly, "If I really liked him, I wouldn't even listen to your happy moments with him & I would have already flirt with him if I did." I acted strong, as if I didnt even care about him anymore. But the tears in my eyes just can't stay. Kanina siak kau! Aku benci kau.
Ugh, enough about this. My schedule is super hectic. The result is, my dusty blog. I have too much to handle for now. If I am free, I promise you, I'd update it. ASAP.Labels: boysboysboys.
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Written on Friday, January 16, 2009 @ 5:12 PM
What's with people nowadays? Rushing into relationship & stuffs. I noticed that teenagers my age, below & above, will tend to find one. Then, for a freaking short period of time, they claim that they are fated to be together. Like, how would they know? Ok fine. This is a totally random post.
My new year resolution is to focus on my studies & not let anything get along the way. I am not interested in boys & relationships anymore. Not the right time.
Unfortunately, problems came up. Ok, I am fine with that. & I'm really hoping we would all get over it. Another thing is, I want to find a job! Damn it. I need one, desperately.
So, they got fed up, they said this. "OK, I'll be honest with you! Would you love to be my life time partner?" & bomb! I was dumb-founded. I seriously don't know what else to say. It's not that I don't have any feelings for them. I do. But, I just don't feel like getting into relationships for now. Sorry. I was forced to act. I am sorry if you guys thought I was playing with your heart. But all these is unexpected. I really didn't know that it would turn out this way. Having a scandal is already such a burden for me. In school, its like I am playing hide & seek. I see him, I hide. He see me, I hide. Terrible.
The most heartbreaking moment was to find out, after not getting what he wanted, he proceeded to Effah. Fuck you! Ok, this is a different guy. While this another different guy is so caring towards you. But you forced yourself not to like anyone. I really cried. Tsk. Me & Effah thought, why have a boyfriend when we can have tons & tons of boy friends without getting anyone jealous? She said, "This is the reason why I don't wanna get into relationships unless I am really ready to face everything. & I won't accept him, not even give him my number. I know you like him." At least she knows I am the type of girl who don't go for guys who likes your friends or otherwise. Then, I said, "No, its okay. Guys will be guys. Just go if you want." & she replied instantly, "If I really liked him, I wouldn't even listen to your happy moments with him & I would have already flirt with him if I did." I acted strong, as if I didnt even care about him anymore. But the tears in my eyes just can't stay. Kanina siak kau! Aku benci kau.
Ugh, enough about this. My schedule is super hectic. The result is, my dusty blog. I have too much to handle for now. If I am free, I promise you, I'd update it. ASAP.Labels: boysboysboys.
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Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
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