For thinking too much, this is the result. Super duper heavy headache. & I swear, I can't rest in peace. Not die, but just rest. In peace, without any disturbance. I can't even take a nap! My mind is too polluted with stuff that I ain't suppose to think about, unnecessary stuffs. I am just waiting for it too burst. Not literally burst, just faint. Heh.
Who are you people? Why must you like not reveal yourself? Why must there be hatred in this world? Why can't there be just peace? Why are there still people who just thinks about themselves? Why?
Whoever you are, boy or girl. Gay or lesbian. Man or woman. Ladies or even gentlemen. Just tell me who you are. Figuring out who you are really tortures me. Thinking about it makes its so.. feel in the blanks. I can't sleep just because of this? Hell-o, I know I have got better things to do. But until you own up who you are, I wont be at peace.
This may refer to anybody. Not just that PUKI freak.
I just feel like breaking down but also, at the same time I can't. Part of the reason was because Amir said I am a big girl. & big girls don't cry. Thanks friend ;D
& Noura, thanks babe for being there always. (:
*Sighs* I hope I'll recover by the end of today. I hope I'll wake up with a smile on my face tomorrow. But hoping for me is really not worth it. I'll just have to let it go.
So, woke up early today to go to school & hand in my MD form. Brought Aliyah Baby along because I was going to send her straight to Apple Tree Playgroup. Saw Ms Azlina, she said Aliyah's cute. Hahah. Despite being late, the teacher actually smiled widely when she saw us walking towards Apple Tree Playgroup. Seriously, by the time I sent her, I started stretching my hands. Painful babe. From house to East Spring Sec to Apple Tree, I carried Aliyah. Nevermind, atleast I enjoyed doing that. I think sending & fetching Aliyah from school is gonna be my daily routine until her school holiday. Hurr~
Ok then, reached home, turn the TV on, switched from channels to channels until it was time to fetch Aliyah. Got back home, phone call from Fee saying she was coming over. Sorry if I didn't entertain you just now. Was really engrossed with you know what. Hahah.
I was bored. Today, nobody chatted with me. So being the kid in me, I went to Everything Girl official website & started playing makeovers & dress-ups. Got bored with it, so move on to REAL makeover & dress-up. I dressed Aliyah up into a baby princess. Haa. May sound lame, but Noura does it too okay. Found out she was playing makeover & dress-up games too! Yay us.
Nothing much happened today. I am sick & tired of today. I want tomorrow to come fast. Why? Because I'm gonna ride the Singapore Flyer! Woohoo.
I feel like black & white nowadays. Each time I start hoping, it will turn out to burn & crash. Each time I start giving up, somehow it turned out to be a happy ending. Why must it be that way? I can't possibly be thinking negative always right? But I would usually find myself at risks when I start thinking positive. Out of the blues, I will get butterflies. For hoping to much, I think I finally gave up. But for giving up, I am hoping for a happy ending. But for hoping for a happy ending, I know it will not turn out to be the way I want it to be. So tell me? How should I think? What should I do? I dont wanna lose the people I love you know. Do you?
Illa I am tired of you. Why are you even figuring out who is he? BECAUSE I HAVE NO FRIENDS BY THAT NICK. Nevermind Illa, you'll know one day. Can I know who he is now? Well, I dont know. Just pray hard that he'll reveal himself fast. *prays hard* ;DDDDDDD
i wont let mak kau puki koyak ruin my day. so what the fuck, spam me all you want. i couldn't care less because u only say stupid, empty words. let us meet one day. since ur not scared laa eh.
& to this unexpected reader, illa: tzzzz: oh, i know you. & here i thought you didn't even want to view or read my blog at all. anyhows, much thanks for saying he is a kensss.
Damn, why am I being so depressed when its already the end of school and time for hip hip hooray? Instead, I feel so fcuked-up. I hate my holidays. I expected something better.
Forget I even said all that.
Seeing both of them together makes me feel so.. guilty? I miss those times we share jokes & stuffs. Really. I feel jealous. Because what they did, was exactly what we did. Now I am thinking, am I making the right decision? Should I continue what I'm doing, or should I just forget & say sorry or forgive that person? This jealousy in me is worse than what I ever felt towards anybody. I am superduper serious.
I want all that back. I want it back. I cherished every sweet moments we shared. I really treasure those times. Alot. I feel like turning back time, only if I could. I really really missed everything about it. Ok, let's move on. It makes me feel sick thinking of it.
So, yesterday was the last day of my Junior year. Wow, Junior eh. Well, I am happy that at least I got promoted without any advance. Really. I really love my sister for being there for me. I really love her. Omg, did I just said what I said earlier on? Hah.
I will miss my classmates real badly. I love them. They have been a part of me for almost 2 years? & all the mischievous mistakes we've done together. I'll miss them. Especially my girls. The malays. We've been friends since the first day of our secondary lives. Hello. I love them. They're my sisters.
We go thru thick & thin together. We fought with each other. But hey, that just strengthens our friendship right? Thats what sisters do, fight. I love you girls. Hell with those who thinks we're spoilt brats, minahs, bitches, etc. As long as we're together & believe that we ain't one, thats good enough.
Eventhough sometimes I gave you attitude, make faces or turn a cold shoulder, that doesn't mean i hate you. But I just hate the fact that some of you just think I am what you think I am. If you get what I mean.
This girl. She have been there for me. For nearly one & a half years. Until something took place. I really misunderstood her. She was the only one who could read my mind. Who could feel me. Who could understand me. Who knew what I have been through. ALL. She have seen everything thats worse that had happened to me. She's the only one. & I really love her out of all. My favourite girlfriend. My sister, my buddy & my bestfriend. Noura, your the best (:
All of you are the best of the best. Better than best! Trust me. Its hard to let the friendship just fade away. What if one day, we go our own ways? When we ignore each other just for a new friend? So, like what Noura's planning to do, let's pinky swear we ain't gonna leave each other for a new friend? How bout that? (:
Eh, buto laaa! Kau apehal skg? Tk happy pe? Aku kacau hidop kau? Tk kan! Kau asal? No life pe sia. Kau jgn mcm org gile pat sini eh.
Asal nan kau? Aku da ckp kan tk perlu bwk name mak bapak aku. Fcuk off la eh. Kau jgn ckp org uh. Kau pon same jgak. Mak kau puki pon koyak pe! Fyi, smer org peh mak puki dah koyak. BODOH. bual tkde alas. Pikir dulu uh sia.
Kau pikir aku tkle track kau pe skg? Eh, tggl call police uh. Brani tak? Obviously, not. Yg step besar kau ke aku? At least aku ade GUTS nk lawan kau balik WITHOUT any nicknames. Bukan mcm KAU! tulis uh name. BODOH. tk brani, buat hal tk brani uh!
tkde konek/puki pe? oops! lupe. kau kan lesbian/gay. kalau ade pon, ape gunenye! limit2 jual badan. HAHAHAHHAHAH! da tue kene buang tepi jalan. KESIAN PE?
EH BODOH! koyak tk koyak, kene main tetap rase laa! jgn bodoh uh. everyone knows that. kau sorang je uh puki koyak smpi kene main pon tk rase. bodoh. sial uh, imagine how selenge you are? kesian eh kau?
kau tkde kwn pe nk kacau aku? g buat hal sendirik uh! ever heard of MYOB? oh, lupe. kau kan bodoh. ni smer cnfm tak tau. prangai budak kecik sia kau. seriously. nobody wants to befriend u.
check2, kau tkde kwn pon eh. asal? ade HIV. awwww. main byk sgt. ni laaa, prostitute. sedih eh jadi kau. tkde org pon nk dekat. GELI peh psl kan. org tkde manners. tgk muke kau je, JIJIK.
who in the right state of mind will do that? oh, i know. YOU. kau laa org yg sikit2 mendak je g carik konek org nk isap. kan? tu psl kau tau puas tk puas. da laa. kau just keep ur mouth shut kay. aku tau kau buat ni smer. tu psl kau tau byk sgt information. lalalaaaa. tkya malu. aku da biase layan org mcm kau. tsk2. PEOPLE NOWADAYS. no life, carik psl. abe tudoh2 org buat bende mapeyk. dapat tau, dher yg buat. eh, nk blg the whole world kau buat pon okay laaa. feel free. aku tk kesa. because aku tau, kau pernah buat. ORANG DA TK VIRGIN TAU. nk tau tk sape? KAU UH! bodohbodohbodoh.
BODOH! nk ckp org pernah main. check2 dher tgh cover diri sendirik. tsk. i pity u real much. whats with the yipee & wee wee? teringt-ingt time kau tgh main pe?
tsk. please laaa, just reveal yourself then i ask the police track you down, if ur the real person. & everything is cleared. ur just adding more sins to yourself. well, im not. im just fighting for MYSELF. think about what happen when u die. nobody's gonna help u. eventhough people said they can handle all of it when they die, i bet they can't. hello, HELL. who in the world can get thru it without any pain?
easy steps to get urself away from the police.
1. reveal yourself. 2. i'll call my uncle to track you & see if your the right person. 3. no fights, no arguments, no police cases. 4. forgive but never forget.
How bout that? stop ruining ur life. by doing this u are tryna' tell people that u are lacking of attention & somehow seeking attention. in a bad way. or if u want revenge, really, just forget it. it wont do any good. u just tell me ur name, ur grudges towards me & we clarify our doubts. easy. dont be so naive. From here, everyone can see ur feeling mad or angry when i somehow said that ur mom slept with another guy in the previous post. im sorry, but its for you to taste your own medicine. just get over it. ur making things worse. now, i am being polite. i would really appreciate it if u try to be honest & polite with me. thats how we settle things easily & fast.
its either u come back, with the same nickname & tell me ur name. or come back, & find more trouble WITHOUT your name then i will immediately dial for the police. you decide. really. its all for your future man. bad records can go nowhere. til here..
let me start off with yanti's sentence. kids, today's a bore.
i spent my whole day rotting at home, taking care of beloved baby 'aliyah. first wake up call was from Mdm Noreen. Literally, a wake up call. haha. My sister was telling my maid to say I was sick. Due to her stupidity, she said Illa's sleeping. Pfft. Then, Mdm Noreen wanted to talk to me. She asked maid to wake me up. Luckily, I just woke up. At least my lazy voice could help me out. So, I said I was sick. Hah. Shhh. Well, I got thru man. Tak kene caught not coming to school without a reason. Mdm Noreen asked me about my health, which was pretty touching. Haha. So, my voice trailed off & I went back to sleep. -.-
then second wake up call was from Aliyah. She cried because she missed her mama, papa & sister. + she didn't get to sent off her sister to school. sad. so, i had to wake up & carry her to bed. she rested beside me. then, few minutes later, she wanted to watch tv. -.-
went to toilet to take a shower. then, came back, aliyah was sleeping on the sofa. but it didn't last long. she came running to me, & said she wanted to use the comp. i gave in due to her puppy sad eyes. then soon, she got hungry, i had to feed her. so, i fed her.
now, grannies back from hospital. so, they took my shift. finally, a cup of tea. seriously.
oh, have i told you, i went to sakae sushi with ibu, sister & matiin for breakfast? i missed sakae sushi alot. i ate the sushis(duh), cha soba aka the green mee & one more thing laa, i can't seem to remember what its called. super duper nice (: i want again. shit man, i have been craving from the past week. grr. i missed the japanese tea. so calming when u drink it hot. D:
im going there again, i dont care, who wants to tag along? :DD
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ That animal I replied to earlier on can't be bothered. After all, its an animal, right? No manners, no life, loner. Thats why it came here finding trouble. Stupid pig. Only pigs abuse blogs & tagboards.
Remember that time when I said I will tell ya'll whose my special one? Oh, i'll tell you right now. NOBODY. I am friggin' not in the mood to fall for anybody. -.-
Eh binatang, kau apehal siol? Orang susahkan hidop kau pe skg? Jgn carik pasal uh sia. No life pe, g blog org maki2?
Ape kau kate? Mak aku tk ajar? Eh bodoh, g tgk cermin uh. Mak kau da tak ajar, tk antar skola plak tu. Prangai jgn sial uh. Da dtg pat blog org beh nk pegi maki2. Tkde manners pe sia? Tk perlu bwk2 name mak aku pe. Aku ckp mak kau tdo nan jantan lain kau suke? i suppose, not.
Get this straight eh, mak aku tk pernah kacau hidop kau. Jdi jgn pernah bwk2 name makbapak aku.
Please uh. Jgn nak step big fcuk eh pat blog aku. Nak letak name sendirik pon tk brani. Waste time ajek carik pasal nan kau. Kalau kene bayar pon tkpe jgak uh seyy.
Life's full of ups & downs. Well, mostly ups for lucky people. But it seems that my life is more to the downs. Damn it. Problems after problems. When will it stop? I hate it, alot. Why can't people trust me? I'm I that dishonest? Whatever.
All I know is that I do take the time to think wisely. Hello, I am not peanut-brained, ok. So, stop looking down on me like that. I have got brains to think. Please la, I never had the intention of doing any of that stuffs. Even though I see people do it. I know how to lead a GOOD life. I know how to take care of myself. Although you said that you lectured me because you love me, I think thats not a good way. Maybe thats the reason why Cik Maya turned out hanyut/wild.
If I am being lectured, why not my sister? Everybody pointed their fingers on me, what have I done wrong? Did I ever get pregnant? Did I even have sex? NO.
I really do appreciate those warnings. But I don't need a lecture. I'm a big girl. I can think. You see, elderlies said that watching too much television for kids will damage your brain, I think that they watch to much Teenagers Nowadays Stories (eg. Crime Watch, PG, etc.) that they think too negatively about their child/grandchild.
I am not trying to say that I am lacking of love & attention. But you all dont seem to understand me. I never had the intention to even pierce my tongue, eyebrows, etc.. Or worse, tattoo. Get this straight, I won't even do any of that. Promise. If everyone keeps on being like this, don't you think they would feel useless until they do what they think they would? I can be lectured but once in a while. It seems like everywhere I go, I got the lecture. Your pressuring me. Do you want me to be like what your thinking of me right now? Negatively. I suppose, not. Please, I can assure you that I won't do any of these unless you stop thinking negative about others.
You gave other friend's child of yours encouragements to do whatever they want, to live the life the yearned for. But what would we, your daughters, feel? I can't take this anymore.
DRESSED IN JELITA, ACCESORISED WITH MINIBITS & CHOMEL, SHOED ON VINCCI, PERFUMED WITH VICTORIA'S SECRET, SNAPPED BY OLYMPUS
today, school's boring! hahah. i should have listened to him ystd. don't go school, waste time ajek.
during English we watched a movie titled, "Money not enough". Its a Chinese movie. So, most of us, the malays, especially girls, slept cause we dont understand. Shaffy seemed interested, though. Nazrah & me rested our heads on the same table. Soon after that, we slept. Haha. Then followed by others.
Maths lesson was really nothing, me & nazrah just kept talking about the special one. Well, obviously hers is Mat. Mine is a bit too personal. Next time, next time. When the time is right. But seriously, I'm still single eyy. I really dont wanna get into a relationship for now. Really, NO.
Malay, did our corrections. Bored! OK laaa, quite fun though.
Geography, thought of watching Ratatouille but the sound system didn't work. So Ms Lee decided to play a game with the whole class. Murderer. It started out to be boring because the guys keep on cheating. Especially, Hifzhan, Andrew, William, Chin How & Hong Wei. They keep on changing cards so that they wont get caught. I was killed by a human(William) cause I really thought he was a Murderer cause he winked at me. Shit. Then after some time, the game got more exciting but sadly, we only got 1 hour of entertainment cause Mr Ng's class is gonna be so damn bored. Turns out, Science did nothing. We can do anyth. But a few of us gathered together to continue playing Murderer.
Next Monday, Mdm Tan said that we're gonna watch a movie instead of doing corrections. But Mdm Sab's way is abit different cause she's afraid that if we have too much entertainment, we would not do our corrections. So she decided to finish going thru the papers first, then entertainment comes later. Whhe~
Nazrah nak jiwe nan aku tk dtg school (: Maybe uh. Hahah. After school, went to trim my eyebrows. Seriously, it's a mess sia. I have to get it cleaned. Now, its much much better. Mother thought I went for threading. No ok. Haha. I just trimmed. I didn't cukur, I just trimmed. Trimmed. Must I say it again? Trimmed. TRIMMED ! OK, shuttup.
Whatever happened between me & him? Nothing much. I'll just have to avoid my heart being trampled on. So yeah. Sakit hati tau ke tak.
another post! well well, i guess i did pretty badly for my science. real bad. gaaaaaaa D: shit laaa. bodoh. nevermind just wait for the overall marks.
i think i should start updating. because waiting for the pictures to come could take forever. so far hari raya was awesome. no lie. hha. well, only one. but hey, let it fly away. i dont wanna remember it anymore.
YOU KNOW! i am superduper annoyed. seriously. if either me or noura went up to represent the class i think we would win cause we know each & every answer EXCEPT for 2 of them. which was about kallang theatre & speakers corner(?). hah! bodoh, aku tk bace suratkhabar. acmne nk tau? hahahhaha. oh yes, u know, there's one question. seriously super freaking easy!
it was something bout phua chu beng, was it? heh. & i gave pearlyn clues by curling my hair (which means curly hair), poking my cheek (which means mole) while noura show my feet & shouted yellow. the answer was phua chu kang! hahaha. stupid laa. kay, pearlyn not stupid. then another one was about japanese occupation. the answer was kempeitai but the girls beside me kept asking each other, "eh, who the chief uh? who uh?" so i thought the question was about the chief then we shouted, YAMASHITA. mak, noura & me tdi smangat kebabian sia.
theres this thing called lifeline (we were only given one chance to call people up for help), then, grant dont know the answer but he went up & said Geylang when me & noura & adilah knew the answer. it was LITTLE INDIA. pfft.
another one which i really can't forget was .. i even remembered the question. & guess what? nobody got it correct! gaaaaa. i write it in convo kay.
Teacher: Name the school of arts.. Illa: (I thought) I know, i know! Lasalle College of the Arts. & smiled proudly. Teacher: Name the school of arts which was officially opened in year 2008.. Illa: (think again) eh no. not lasalle, lasalle from last time. uhh. NAFA. but what does it stand for. Nanyang uhh, nanyang.. (turned back & asked aloud) EH ANYBODY KNOWS WHAT NAFA STANDS FOR?
by then i was really confident the answer was NAFA because he said officially opened in 2008. then he continued..
Teacher: Ok clue, those interested in fashion designing would know. Illa: (turned back) Eh korang, aku lupe uh. NAFA APE? NANYANG APE? Adilah: (proud-.-) bukan tu laa. kau sembarang je. the answer is not that. Illa: eh aku tau laa. alamak. (think & think) yes! Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts! woohoo! eh korang its nanyang academy of fine arts. korang! aku tau. then i started shouting the answer. i feel like taking over the mic siol. haha. Noura: pegi atas illa! go! just go up! Illa: Pearlyn! Call me up! Call me. Call me up. Yanti: just go up!
Pearlyn signaled that our lifeline was used up. tsk. Pandaikan Grant. alamaaaaak.
Teacher: started to countdown from 5. Illa: Cher! i know i know! cher! i go up uh please. oi cher! Teacher: the answer is Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts.(NAFA) Illa: cher. Walauweyy. i know siaa. (& i was in the verge of breaking down. because we got only 3 points when the rest of the classes got 5-6 points? even the sec 1s win us sia!)
seriously, hoow could a i-wanna-be-a-fashion-designer student not know? tsk. i know all these laa kays. aku semangat nk masok fashion designing. tny auntie-auntie, uncle-uncle, kawan-kawan aku smer. beh si adie tu sembarang ckp aku salah! kan, sape btol skg. alamaaaaaak. i even chose a mentor okay! my auntie or cousin is it? she took fashion designing in NAFA & now is on attachment in London. see, i know all these. but i wanna take the attachment in PARIS. aku nk paris! paris gerekkkk. If either noura or me went up, i think we would win. serious. hello? only 2 points lost. okay! while the rest smer 3-4 points loss.
btw, my mama & me changed our mind about going to send me to Lasalle after Os. haha. illa pikir pnjg ehh (: We're thinking of sending me to NAFA instead. thats why i know. wheeeeeee !~
Noura, now then i can let go. hah (: & forgive me on my bad english today. i just typed what came up into my mind. hah.
Seeing you two so happy & comfortable with each other even though you two ain't in a relationship, really kills me deep deep inside. IDK why. But i just feel that way. It really hurts, but I am not in love or in like with you. I guess. D;
Living in a world without someone special (not only soulmates okay!) is so depressing, you know.
ps: i am not referring to hakeem, syeddah, nazrah, mat, atiqa & partner.
YesYesYesYesYesYesYesYes! Today is officially the 9th of October :D
Well, 4 things great about today. Paper went well. Tough questions are exceptional okaay! Whooo. No more stressing after today! Wheee. Today is the 9th man. 9th of October, forget uh? Hakeem laa. Hakeem. & last but not least, going jalan raye with kwn tersayangs soooon (:
WHOAA. But there's still one thing that's making me feel uneasy. I can't seem to find out what it is. What is it?
Is it about the outing? The jalan raye? Or worse, 9TH OCTOBER? Heeellllll. I hate what I am thinking about. Pffft. Oh please, all the bad things, DISSAPEAR. Eventhough, I know that won't work. Foooooooooooool. -.-
After school, we went around the T-Mart to find what we want. End up, there's nothing found. Effah went to the tempat cukur kening but it was close. So she joined us. Noura, nazrah & yanti went to the toilet upstairs & left us. Soon, fateha, adilah & effah went back home. Let me summarise what yanti, shaffy, nazrah, ashiqin, atycar, noura & me did.
Je suis très désolé j'ai oublié votre nom.
Sat at the second level of T-Mart outside beauty saloon.
A cleaner came to us & we entertained her ( She's a nice nenek. But big mouth. Heh. )
She went off.
We got bored.
Nazrah & Ashiqin went off.
We find a new place outside a remote area. (still at the second level)
Played freeze.
Danced around.
1 or 2 hrs later, went to Brahouse (so? got problem uh? tgk coli pon nk tgk.)
Go buy drinks.
Goodbye.
So, that was all we did. May sound bored. But it was gereeek. We also talked about nnti da besar kahwin pat ne. Abe nnti pregnant maseh kua samesame. Abe da besar anak kite smer jadi bestfreinds. Abe nk buat ape during out first night with our future husbands. Cheeky kan dorang? hahaha. I love them.
Shaffy said: tgk kiri , tgk kanan , jgn luper atas bawah mari saye blanjer awak mkn , sbab hari ni awak lawah
heyyyy :DDD since tmr's the last paper, lets start getting things updated. bout the papers, next week i'll post bout it. dont wanna be too stressed out thinking of it.
hoho. currently chatting with shaffy. lemme give u an extract of what we're chatting about. haha.
{♥}ILLA says: exam bsk abes. {♥}ILLA says: no more excuses. {♥}ILLA says: online often. shaffyclownie says: hahahahah. {♥}ILLA says: haha shaffyclownie says: jambu kepe siaa {♥}ILLA says: sape, kau? kau memang la jambu, kate shaffy mah. shaffyclownie says: denial shaffyclownie says: lawah seh illa {♥}ILLA says: ape plak denial? shaffyclownie says: tkder paper shaffyclownie says: aghagha {♥}ILLA says: hahahahha {♥}ILLA says: pe saje. {♥}ILLA says: ehhhh! aku happy.
i said smth personal.
shaffyclownie says: inilah miracle of syawal {♥}ILLA says: padahal days bkn years. aku exaggerating jee. shaffyclownie says: buah nangka , buah cempedak , shaffy pon mcm phm jugak {♥}ILLA says: haha. tau pon. shaffyclownie says: haha. lawan pantun {♥}ILLA says: uhuh. jap aku pikir. {♥}ILLA says: aku peh smer lamelame kay. {♥}ILLA says: aku tk pndi sgt. shaffyclownie says: no sweat {♥}ILLA says: buah rambutan, buah kiwi, sedar jugak diri sendiri. {♥}ILLA says: haha.. kay lame. shaffyclownie says: ok pek shaffyclownie says: bagus tu shaffy sedar diri, at least tk bangga diri sendiri {♥}ILLA says: kene balas eh? shaffyclownie says: ye {♥}ILLA says: orang bobal sume beralas. aku tak tau cmne nk balas! {♥}ILLA says: haha shaffyclownie says: waa not bad shaffyclownie says: HMM {♥}ILLA says: haha {♥}ILLA says: balas cpat! shaffyclownie says: sabar2 {♥}ILLA says: aite, berpantun plak kite. shaffyclownie says: kalau tk tau balas , pergi lah isi borang maklum balas shaffyclownie says: balas cepat! shaffyclownie says: haha {♥}ILLA says: sabar aku pikir. {♥}ILLA says: ade keropok, ade kerepek. bobal jgn nak merepek! {♥}ILLA says: haha. cpat balas! shaffyclownie says: u play game , no shame shame , i tink ur pantun very lame shaffyclownie says: ur turn {♥}ILLA says: my pantun lame, or u now shameshame? because u know i win the game! {♥}ILLA says: haha. balik pade kau. shaffyclownie says: if u win the game , y does it take u soo long , to type the lame lame lame , plus plus stupid song {♥}ILLA says: i need brains to think. not just throwing stuffs in. & its not a song, you got it wrong. {♥}ILLA says: go go! reply. shaffyclownie says: dont u know , tt sajak or pantun is a song , so u try say soooo , to a long long song {♥}ILLA says: we were writing poems, instead of songs. ohmy ohmy! your so wrong! shaffyclownie says: dnt u know , tt songs n poems r the same , nt in snow , bt in this game shaffyclownie says: go go {♥}ILLA says: sabar! shaffyclownie says: kk shaffyclownie says: no sweat girl shaffyclownie says: steady {♥}ILLA says: eh eh. bkn song sey. no hard feelings eh. jgn nk paisey. {♥}ILLA says: rhyme tak? shaffyclownie says: yea bby shaffyclownie says: my turn {♥}ILLA says: ok go. shaffyclownie says: fine uh , just admit u're afraid of losing , from shaffy uh , then people will goo boring! shaffyclownie says: goo {♥}ILLA says: tk rhyme langsong babe. shaffyclownie says: u tink {♥}ILLA says: u wanna do again or i do now? shaffyclownie says: u do now {♥}ILLA says: excusez-moi. à qui effrayé de perdre. u ou moi ? pensez cela le bébé. {♥}ILLA says: phm tak? bahase french. shaffyclownie says: just first line {♥}ILLA says: hha. aku translate kay. {♥}ILLA says: excuse me. whose afraid of losing? u or me? think about it baby. {♥}ILLA says: ok done shaffyclownie says: if u wanna speak french , better dnt eh , cz u will trench , n lose eh shaffyclownie says: tgk aku cpat shaffyclownie says: ur turn again {♥}ILLA says: da tk phm. {♥}ILLA says: haha {♥}ILLA says: so what if i speak french? asal salah eh? u dont understand french? too bad eh.
moreover uh, ur twisting things around laa asal uh? dont change subject laa. {♥}ILLA says: go! shaffyclownie says: waa 8 lines pek {♥}ILLA says: haha {♥}ILLA says: lawan lincah. {♥}ILLA says: dari malay ke english ke french sak aku. shaffyclownie says: OKAY lets get things clear , wth r we dOIng now u now kindda fear fear fear , fear of thw WOW shaffyclownie says: goo shaffyclownie says: cute gmbr {♥}ILLA says: we were talking bout poems and songs. then suddenly about french, thats wrong. whose afraid of what, dong? oooooh, the fact you've given is so so wrong! shaffyclownie says: i tell u whose afraid ya ure afraid tts rite , u r nw im gonna say boo-ya when im drivin in my new car {♥}ILLA says: oooh, dgrdgr kau ade car? so what if you say boo-ya? im still not afraid laaa. don't have license, can drive uh? shaffyclownie says: ya i gt a car , y not happy is it not afraid not afraid uh like i car bit by bit
no license , i dont care still gonna drive it cz i dare n nt afraid of ziztz {♥}ILLA says: oh oh, so brave isit? oh what a lie. please laa stop it. tmr i dare you, you drive? {♥}ILLA says: go. shaffyclownie says: ya i know im brave ah dong u wanna me to drive , i drag u along so cn give me FIVE {♥}ILLA says: ni btol tk btol? bring me to my JB hse, will you? you pay the toll. kau kene tangkap aku lari dulu. {♥}ILLA says: bluek! shaffyclownie says: yep thts is a fact y cnt accept it ? i'll bring u to a pack , pack of wat ? pack of cheesy-bitz {♥}ILLA says: haha. {♥}ILLA says: kk. {♥}ILLA says: aku tk kalah, aku tk menang. aku malas nk pikir. tu pasal aku kasi kau menang.
ade lori ade bas, lain hari boleh balas. {♥}ILLA says: amcm? shaffyclownie says: maner ada lain kali , kalau nk serah diri , kalau tkt sakit hati , kiter continue lain hari {♥}ILLA says: aku tak sakit hati. kau phm ke tak ni? aku cume malas sekali. nak pikir byk kali.
aku anything kau nak win? kau better think. cause aku cnfm win {♥}ILLA says: eh lagi satu. shaffyclownie says: kalau kau nk aku win , maknenye ko kalah , so u leave me in , so ko bleh blah {♥}ILLA says: aku ni anything. yang previous thing. jgn byk thinking. aku only kidding kidding.
ade keropok, ade kerepek. kan aku da start aku peh merepek. shaffyclownie says: kalu dh tau , bgs lah tu , tapi ko der start , sbab ko mepek selalu , so now i wanna go n fart {♥}ILLA says: aku blah. kau tepuk tgn sebelah. tkde org nk tepuk ngn kau. aku kan da blah. shaffyclownie says: bla bla black sheep , have u any wool ? now i wanna go n sleep , n leave this stupid fool {♥}ILLA says: aku merepek. kau ape kurang nyee. jgn merepek. ew, busuk nyeeeeee! {♥}ILLA says: eh eh suka hati nmpk? aku kidding2. tapi ade limit ye kak. tk semestinye aku anything. shaffyclownie says: aku ke kau yg merepek ? kalau aku merepek pandai so skg aku nk pegi belikan kau kerepek , naik aku peh keldai {♥}ILLA says: s'pore ade keldai? eh lupe, kau pat zoo. ape bende kau pandai? aku da start sakit, hachooo! shaffyclownie says: kau luper sbab ko nyanyok , abeh nk hachoo hachoo , masih sempat fikir psl blog , aku mkn hi-chew {♥}ILLA says: saje saje pggl aku nyanyok? buat klaka pe girl? nenek-nenek pon rock. kau mkn hi-chew, pikir aku kesah pe? shaffyclownie says: u claimed tt u frget wat then now u wanna blame me huh ? i eat hi-chew for wat ? to forget bout this uhuh {♥}ILLA says: org lupe tk semestinye org nyanyok. sape blame kau? org lupe tu org STM. kau nk lupe psl ni? Oh wow. shaffyclownie says: kau nk step ckp paantun pat sini , tell u wat , forget it lah eh , ckp org tk sedar diri , nk rhyme kan pon tau eh {♥}ILLA says: ini bukan pantun syg oi. its normal sentences. serious. {♥}ILLA says: kan aku da ckp, aku mls nk pikir, kau degil nk continue asal? shaffyclownie says: aku kan semangat shaffyclownie says: dh lh rest shaffyclownie says: pnat shaffyclownie says: ckp biase {♥}ILLA says: haha {♥}ILLA says: tu uh {♥}ILLA says: eh! gmba kau cute shaffyclownie says: oi shaffyclownie says: sengajer nk buat aku kembang {♥}ILLA says: aku serious, cute sak. {♥}ILLA says: haha shaffyclownie says: dh dh
sikit peh mapeyk pantun kite. haha. funny siol. do this often uh. gerek. padehal bsk maths paper sak. hahah.
A guy who have been there for me for nearly 2 YEARS(?). Who knows me well. Very well. Basically, easy-going.
He claims he's hot, handsome, cute, etc. He owns Keemo :o
The truth is, I love his laugh. His smile, his jokes. And him. But maybe he's tooo hot that everybody is in love with him now. Hahahah. Sudahlah you. Cukop, nnti you kembang.
Here you go, Muhammad Hakeem. Happy Birthday to you. Happy 17th Birthday to you.
May all your dreams come true. & all the best in everything you do. Stay happy.
Happy Birthday to my dearest abang, Haikal. Hahaha. Random sey Illa. Kaykay.
I love Hakeem okay? Best.
From Syeddah: Hapie bdae, may you be hansem alwaes. b loved n hapie2 slalu! :-D
I didn't post for the past few days due to the examinations. It's not done yet. But for hari raya's sake, to all muslims:
SELAMAT HARI RAYA. JIKA ADA SALAH SILAP, HARAP DIMAAFKAN. COLLECT DUIT RAYE BYKBYK OKEHH!
& ONE MORE THING, JGN MKN BYK SGT. NNTI FATFAT! haha. LOVE YOU.
special message:
To Nur Afiqah & Muhammad Asha'ari. Happy celebrating your 7th months together. Koraaaang paling yang ter-gerek :DDD Trust each other no matter what others say, okehh!
Last long. Very very long. Hingga ke jinjang pelamin. Or even better... Hingga ke anak cucu ;D
Till death do both of you apart. Even better.. even death can't do you apart. Love you both. Abang & kakak. (:
For thinking too much, this is the result. Super duper heavy headache. & I swear, I can't rest in peace. Not die, but just rest. In peace, without any disturbance. I can't even take a nap! My mind is too polluted with stuff that I ain't suppose to think about, unnecessary stuffs. I am just waiting for it too burst. Not literally burst, just faint. Heh.
Who are you people? Why must you like not reveal yourself? Why must there be hatred in this world? Why can't there be just peace? Why are there still people who just thinks about themselves? Why?
Whoever you are, boy or girl. Gay or lesbian. Man or woman. Ladies or even gentlemen. Just tell me who you are. Figuring out who you are really tortures me. Thinking about it makes its so.. feel in the blanks. I can't sleep just because of this? Hell-o, I know I have got better things to do. But until you own up who you are, I wont be at peace.
This may refer to anybody. Not just that PUKI freak.
I just feel like breaking down but also, at the same time I can't. Part of the reason was because Amir said I am a big girl. & big girls don't cry. Thanks friend ;D
& Noura, thanks babe for being there always. (:
*Sighs* I hope I'll recover by the end of today. I hope I'll wake up with a smile on my face tomorrow. But hoping for me is really not worth it. I'll just have to let it go.
So, woke up early today to go to school & hand in my MD form. Brought Aliyah Baby along because I was going to send her straight to Apple Tree Playgroup. Saw Ms Azlina, she said Aliyah's cute. Hahah. Despite being late, the teacher actually smiled widely when she saw us walking towards Apple Tree Playgroup. Seriously, by the time I sent her, I started stretching my hands. Painful babe. From house to East Spring Sec to Apple Tree, I carried Aliyah. Nevermind, atleast I enjoyed doing that. I think sending & fetching Aliyah from school is gonna be my daily routine until her school holiday. Hurr~
Ok then, reached home, turn the TV on, switched from channels to channels until it was time to fetch Aliyah. Got back home, phone call from Fee saying she was coming over. Sorry if I didn't entertain you just now. Was really engrossed with you know what. Hahah.
I was bored. Today, nobody chatted with me. So being the kid in me, I went to Everything Girl official website & started playing makeovers & dress-ups. Got bored with it, so move on to REAL makeover & dress-up. I dressed Aliyah up into a baby princess. Haa. May sound lame, but Noura does it too okay. Found out she was playing makeover & dress-up games too! Yay us.
Nothing much happened today. I am sick & tired of today. I want tomorrow to come fast. Why? Because I'm gonna ride the Singapore Flyer! Woohoo.
I feel like black & white nowadays. Each time I start hoping, it will turn out to burn & crash. Each time I start giving up, somehow it turned out to be a happy ending. Why must it be that way? I can't possibly be thinking negative always right? But I would usually find myself at risks when I start thinking positive. Out of the blues, I will get butterflies. For hoping to much, I think I finally gave up. But for giving up, I am hoping for a happy ending. But for hoping for a happy ending, I know it will not turn out to be the way I want it to be. So tell me? How should I think? What should I do? I dont wanna lose the people I love you know. Do you?
Illa I am tired of you. Why are you even figuring out who is he? BECAUSE I HAVE NO FRIENDS BY THAT NICK. Nevermind Illa, you'll know one day. Can I know who he is now? Well, I dont know. Just pray hard that he'll reveal himself fast. *prays hard* ;DDDDDDD
i wont let mak kau puki koyak ruin my day. so what the fuck, spam me all you want. i couldn't care less because u only say stupid, empty words. let us meet one day. since ur not scared laa eh.
& to this unexpected reader, illa: tzzzz: oh, i know you. & here i thought you didn't even want to view or read my blog at all. anyhows, much thanks for saying he is a kensss.
Damn, why am I being so depressed when its already the end of school and time for hip hip hooray? Instead, I feel so fcuked-up. I hate my holidays. I expected something better.
Forget I even said all that.
Seeing both of them together makes me feel so.. guilty? I miss those times we share jokes & stuffs. Really. I feel jealous. Because what they did, was exactly what we did. Now I am thinking, am I making the right decision? Should I continue what I'm doing, or should I just forget & say sorry or forgive that person? This jealousy in me is worse than what I ever felt towards anybody. I am superduper serious.
I want all that back. I want it back. I cherished every sweet moments we shared. I really treasure those times. Alot. I feel like turning back time, only if I could. I really really missed everything about it. Ok, let's move on. It makes me feel sick thinking of it.
So, yesterday was the last day of my Junior year. Wow, Junior eh. Well, I am happy that at least I got promoted without any advance. Really. I really love my sister for being there for me. I really love her. Omg, did I just said what I said earlier on? Hah.
I will miss my classmates real badly. I love them. They have been a part of me for almost 2 years? & all the mischievous mistakes we've done together. I'll miss them. Especially my girls. The malays. We've been friends since the first day of our secondary lives. Hello. I love them. They're my sisters.
We go thru thick & thin together. We fought with each other. But hey, that just strengthens our friendship right? Thats what sisters do, fight. I love you girls. Hell with those who thinks we're spoilt brats, minahs, bitches, etc. As long as we're together & believe that we ain't one, thats good enough.
Eventhough sometimes I gave you attitude, make faces or turn a cold shoulder, that doesn't mean i hate you. But I just hate the fact that some of you just think I am what you think I am. If you get what I mean.
This girl. She have been there for me. For nearly one & a half years. Until something took place. I really misunderstood her. She was the only one who could read my mind. Who could feel me. Who could understand me. Who knew what I have been through. ALL. She have seen everything thats worse that had happened to me. She's the only one. & I really love her out of all. My favourite girlfriend. My sister, my buddy & my bestfriend. Noura, your the best (:
All of you are the best of the best. Better than best! Trust me. Its hard to let the friendship just fade away. What if one day, we go our own ways? When we ignore each other just for a new friend? So, like what Noura's planning to do, let's pinky swear we ain't gonna leave each other for a new friend? How bout that? (:
Eh, buto laaa! Kau apehal skg? Tk happy pe? Aku kacau hidop kau? Tk kan! Kau asal? No life pe sia. Kau jgn mcm org gile pat sini eh.
Asal nan kau? Aku da ckp kan tk perlu bwk name mak bapak aku. Fcuk off la eh. Kau jgn ckp org uh. Kau pon same jgak. Mak kau puki pon koyak pe! Fyi, smer org peh mak puki dah koyak. BODOH. bual tkde alas. Pikir dulu uh sia.
Kau pikir aku tkle track kau pe skg? Eh, tggl call police uh. Brani tak? Obviously, not. Yg step besar kau ke aku? At least aku ade GUTS nk lawan kau balik WITHOUT any nicknames. Bukan mcm KAU! tulis uh name. BODOH. tk brani, buat hal tk brani uh!
tkde konek/puki pe? oops! lupe. kau kan lesbian/gay. kalau ade pon, ape gunenye! limit2 jual badan. HAHAHAHHAHAH! da tue kene buang tepi jalan. KESIAN PE?
EH BODOH! koyak tk koyak, kene main tetap rase laa! jgn bodoh uh. everyone knows that. kau sorang je uh puki koyak smpi kene main pon tk rase. bodoh. sial uh, imagine how selenge you are? kesian eh kau?
kau tkde kwn pe nk kacau aku? g buat hal sendirik uh! ever heard of MYOB? oh, lupe. kau kan bodoh. ni smer cnfm tak tau. prangai budak kecik sia kau. seriously. nobody wants to befriend u.
check2, kau tkde kwn pon eh. asal? ade HIV. awwww. main byk sgt. ni laaa, prostitute. sedih eh jadi kau. tkde org pon nk dekat. GELI peh psl kan. org tkde manners. tgk muke kau je, JIJIK.
who in the right state of mind will do that? oh, i know. YOU. kau laa org yg sikit2 mendak je g carik konek org nk isap. kan? tu psl kau tau puas tk puas. da laa. kau just keep ur mouth shut kay. aku tau kau buat ni smer. tu psl kau tau byk sgt information. lalalaaaa. tkya malu. aku da biase layan org mcm kau. tsk2. PEOPLE NOWADAYS. no life, carik psl. abe tudoh2 org buat bende mapeyk. dapat tau, dher yg buat. eh, nk blg the whole world kau buat pon okay laaa. feel free. aku tk kesa. because aku tau, kau pernah buat. ORANG DA TK VIRGIN TAU. nk tau tk sape? KAU UH! bodohbodohbodoh.
BODOH! nk ckp org pernah main. check2 dher tgh cover diri sendirik. tsk. i pity u real much. whats with the yipee & wee wee? teringt-ingt time kau tgh main pe?
tsk. please laaa, just reveal yourself then i ask the police track you down, if ur the real person. & everything is cleared. ur just adding more sins to yourself. well, im not. im just fighting for MYSELF. think about what happen when u die. nobody's gonna help u. eventhough people said they can handle all of it when they die, i bet they can't. hello, HELL. who in the world can get thru it without any pain?
easy steps to get urself away from the police.
1. reveal yourself. 2. i'll call my uncle to track you & see if your the right person. 3. no fights, no arguments, no police cases. 4. forgive but never forget.
How bout that? stop ruining ur life. by doing this u are tryna' tell people that u are lacking of attention & somehow seeking attention. in a bad way. or if u want revenge, really, just forget it. it wont do any good. u just tell me ur name, ur grudges towards me & we clarify our doubts. easy. dont be so naive. From here, everyone can see ur feeling mad or angry when i somehow said that ur mom slept with another guy in the previous post. im sorry, but its for you to taste your own medicine. just get over it. ur making things worse. now, i am being polite. i would really appreciate it if u try to be honest & polite with me. thats how we settle things easily & fast.
its either u come back, with the same nickname & tell me ur name. or come back, & find more trouble WITHOUT your name then i will immediately dial for the police. you decide. really. its all for your future man. bad records can go nowhere. til here..
let me start off with yanti's sentence. kids, today's a bore.
i spent my whole day rotting at home, taking care of beloved baby 'aliyah. first wake up call was from Mdm Noreen. Literally, a wake up call. haha. My sister was telling my maid to say I was sick. Due to her stupidity, she said Illa's sleeping. Pfft. Then, Mdm Noreen wanted to talk to me. She asked maid to wake me up. Luckily, I just woke up. At least my lazy voice could help me out. So, I said I was sick. Hah. Shhh. Well, I got thru man. Tak kene caught not coming to school without a reason. Mdm Noreen asked me about my health, which was pretty touching. Haha. So, my voice trailed off & I went back to sleep. -.-
then second wake up call was from Aliyah. She cried because she missed her mama, papa & sister. + she didn't get to sent off her sister to school. sad. so, i had to wake up & carry her to bed. she rested beside me. then, few minutes later, she wanted to watch tv. -.-
went to toilet to take a shower. then, came back, aliyah was sleeping on the sofa. but it didn't last long. she came running to me, & said she wanted to use the comp. i gave in due to her puppy sad eyes. then soon, she got hungry, i had to feed her. so, i fed her.
now, grannies back from hospital. so, they took my shift. finally, a cup of tea. seriously.
oh, have i told you, i went to sakae sushi with ibu, sister & matiin for breakfast? i missed sakae sushi alot. i ate the sushis(duh), cha soba aka the green mee & one more thing laa, i can't seem to remember what its called. super duper nice (: i want again. shit man, i have been craving from the past week. grr. i missed the japanese tea. so calming when u drink it hot. D:
im going there again, i dont care, who wants to tag along? :DD
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ That animal I replied to earlier on can't be bothered. After all, its an animal, right? No manners, no life, loner. Thats why it came here finding trouble. Stupid pig. Only pigs abuse blogs & tagboards.
Remember that time when I said I will tell ya'll whose my special one? Oh, i'll tell you right now. NOBODY. I am friggin' not in the mood to fall for anybody. -.-
Eh binatang, kau apehal siol? Orang susahkan hidop kau pe skg? Jgn carik pasal uh sia. No life pe, g blog org maki2?
Ape kau kate? Mak aku tk ajar? Eh bodoh, g tgk cermin uh. Mak kau da tak ajar, tk antar skola plak tu. Prangai jgn sial uh. Da dtg pat blog org beh nk pegi maki2. Tkde manners pe sia? Tk perlu bwk2 name mak aku pe. Aku ckp mak kau tdo nan jantan lain kau suke? i suppose, not.
Get this straight eh, mak aku tk pernah kacau hidop kau. Jdi jgn pernah bwk2 name makbapak aku.
Please uh. Jgn nak step big fcuk eh pat blog aku. Nak letak name sendirik pon tk brani. Waste time ajek carik pasal nan kau. Kalau kene bayar pon tkpe jgak uh seyy.
Life's full of ups & downs. Well, mostly ups for lucky people. But it seems that my life is more to the downs. Damn it. Problems after problems. When will it stop? I hate it, alot. Why can't people trust me? I'm I that dishonest? Whatever.
All I know is that I do take the time to think wisely. Hello, I am not peanut-brained, ok. So, stop looking down on me like that. I have got brains to think. Please la, I never had the intention of doing any of that stuffs. Even though I see people do it. I know how to lead a GOOD life. I know how to take care of myself. Although you said that you lectured me because you love me, I think thats not a good way. Maybe thats the reason why Cik Maya turned out hanyut/wild.
If I am being lectured, why not my sister? Everybody pointed their fingers on me, what have I done wrong? Did I ever get pregnant? Did I even have sex? NO.
I really do appreciate those warnings. But I don't need a lecture. I'm a big girl. I can think. You see, elderlies said that watching too much television for kids will damage your brain, I think that they watch to much Teenagers Nowadays Stories (eg. Crime Watch, PG, etc.) that they think too negatively about their child/grandchild.
I am not trying to say that I am lacking of love & attention. But you all dont seem to understand me. I never had the intention to even pierce my tongue, eyebrows, etc.. Or worse, tattoo. Get this straight, I won't even do any of that. Promise. If everyone keeps on being like this, don't you think they would feel useless until they do what they think they would? I can be lectured but once in a while. It seems like everywhere I go, I got the lecture. Your pressuring me. Do you want me to be like what your thinking of me right now? Negatively. I suppose, not. Please, I can assure you that I won't do any of these unless you stop thinking negative about others.
You gave other friend's child of yours encouragements to do whatever they want, to live the life the yearned for. But what would we, your daughters, feel? I can't take this anymore.
DRESSED IN JELITA, ACCESORISED WITH MINIBITS & CHOMEL, SHOED ON VINCCI, PERFUMED WITH VICTORIA'S SECRET, SNAPPED BY OLYMPUS
today, school's boring! hahah. i should have listened to him ystd. don't go school, waste time ajek.
during English we watched a movie titled, "Money not enough". Its a Chinese movie. So, most of us, the malays, especially girls, slept cause we dont understand. Shaffy seemed interested, though. Nazrah & me rested our heads on the same table. Soon after that, we slept. Haha. Then followed by others.
Maths lesson was really nothing, me & nazrah just kept talking about the special one. Well, obviously hers is Mat. Mine is a bit too personal. Next time, next time. When the time is right. But seriously, I'm still single eyy. I really dont wanna get into a relationship for now. Really, NO.
Malay, did our corrections. Bored! OK laaa, quite fun though.
Geography, thought of watching Ratatouille but the sound system didn't work. So Ms Lee decided to play a game with the whole class. Murderer. It started out to be boring because the guys keep on cheating. Especially, Hifzhan, Andrew, William, Chin How & Hong Wei. They keep on changing cards so that they wont get caught. I was killed by a human(William) cause I really thought he was a Murderer cause he winked at me. Shit. Then after some time, the game got more exciting but sadly, we only got 1 hour of entertainment cause Mr Ng's class is gonna be so damn bored. Turns out, Science did nothing. We can do anyth. But a few of us gathered together to continue playing Murderer.
Next Monday, Mdm Tan said that we're gonna watch a movie instead of doing corrections. But Mdm Sab's way is abit different cause she's afraid that if we have too much entertainment, we would not do our corrections. So she decided to finish going thru the papers first, then entertainment comes later. Whhe~
Nazrah nak jiwe nan aku tk dtg school (: Maybe uh. Hahah. After school, went to trim my eyebrows. Seriously, it's a mess sia. I have to get it cleaned. Now, its much much better. Mother thought I went for threading. No ok. Haha. I just trimmed. I didn't cukur, I just trimmed. Trimmed. Must I say it again? Trimmed. TRIMMED ! OK, shuttup.
Whatever happened between me & him? Nothing much. I'll just have to avoid my heart being trampled on. So yeah. Sakit hati tau ke tak.
another post! well well, i guess i did pretty badly for my science. real bad. gaaaaaaa D: shit laaa. bodoh. nevermind just wait for the overall marks.
i think i should start updating. because waiting for the pictures to come could take forever. so far hari raya was awesome. no lie. hha. well, only one. but hey, let it fly away. i dont wanna remember it anymore.
YOU KNOW! i am superduper annoyed. seriously. if either me or noura went up to represent the class i think we would win cause we know each & every answer EXCEPT for 2 of them. which was about kallang theatre & speakers corner(?). hah! bodoh, aku tk bace suratkhabar. acmne nk tau? hahahhaha. oh yes, u know, there's one question. seriously super freaking easy!
it was something bout phua chu beng, was it? heh. & i gave pearlyn clues by curling my hair (which means curly hair), poking my cheek (which means mole) while noura show my feet & shouted yellow. the answer was phua chu kang! hahaha. stupid laa. kay, pearlyn not stupid. then another one was about japanese occupation. the answer was kempeitai but the girls beside me kept asking each other, "eh, who the chief uh? who uh?" so i thought the question was about the chief then we shouted, YAMASHITA. mak, noura & me tdi smangat kebabian sia.
theres this thing called lifeline (we were only given one chance to call people up for help), then, grant dont know the answer but he went up & said Geylang when me & noura & adilah knew the answer. it was LITTLE INDIA. pfft.
another one which i really can't forget was .. i even remembered the question. & guess what? nobody got it correct! gaaaaa. i write it in convo kay.
Teacher: Name the school of arts.. Illa: (I thought) I know, i know! Lasalle College of the Arts. & smiled proudly. Teacher: Name the school of arts which was officially opened in year 2008.. Illa: (think again) eh no. not lasalle, lasalle from last time. uhh. NAFA. but what does it stand for. Nanyang uhh, nanyang.. (turned back & asked aloud) EH ANYBODY KNOWS WHAT NAFA STANDS FOR?
by then i was really confident the answer was NAFA because he said officially opened in 2008. then he continued..
Teacher: Ok clue, those interested in fashion designing would know. Illa: (turned back) Eh korang, aku lupe uh. NAFA APE? NANYANG APE? Adilah: (proud-.-) bukan tu laa. kau sembarang je. the answer is not that. Illa: eh aku tau laa. alamak. (think & think) yes! Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts! woohoo! eh korang its nanyang academy of fine arts. korang! aku tau. then i started shouting the answer. i feel like taking over the mic siol. haha. Noura: pegi atas illa! go! just go up! Illa: Pearlyn! Call me up! Call me. Call me up. Yanti: just go up!
Pearlyn signaled that our lifeline was used up. tsk. Pandaikan Grant. alamaaaaak.
Teacher: started to countdown from 5. Illa: Cher! i know i know! cher! i go up uh please. oi cher! Teacher: the answer is Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts.(NAFA) Illa: cher. Walauweyy. i know siaa. (& i was in the verge of breaking down. because we got only 3 points when the rest of the classes got 5-6 points? even the sec 1s win us sia!)
seriously, hoow could a i-wanna-be-a-fashion-designer student not know? tsk. i know all these laa kays. aku semangat nk masok fashion designing. tny auntie-auntie, uncle-uncle, kawan-kawan aku smer. beh si adie tu sembarang ckp aku salah! kan, sape btol skg. alamaaaaaak. i even chose a mentor okay! my auntie or cousin is it? she took fashion designing in NAFA & now is on attachment in London. see, i know all these. but i wanna take the attachment in PARIS. aku nk paris! paris gerekkkk. If either noura or me went up, i think we would win. serious. hello? only 2 points lost. okay! while the rest smer 3-4 points loss.
btw, my mama & me changed our mind about going to send me to Lasalle after Os. haha. illa pikir pnjg ehh (: We're thinking of sending me to NAFA instead. thats why i know. wheeeeeee !~
Noura, now then i can let go. hah (: & forgive me on my bad english today. i just typed what came up into my mind. hah.
Seeing you two so happy & comfortable with each other even though you two ain't in a relationship, really kills me deep deep inside. IDK why. But i just feel that way. It really hurts, but I am not in love or in like with you. I guess. D;
Living in a world without someone special (not only soulmates okay!) is so depressing, you know.
ps: i am not referring to hakeem, syeddah, nazrah, mat, atiqa & partner.
YesYesYesYesYesYesYesYes! Today is officially the 9th of October :D
Well, 4 things great about today. Paper went well. Tough questions are exceptional okaay! Whooo. No more stressing after today! Wheee. Today is the 9th man. 9th of October, forget uh? Hakeem laa. Hakeem. & last but not least, going jalan raye with kwn tersayangs soooon (:
WHOAA. But there's still one thing that's making me feel uneasy. I can't seem to find out what it is. What is it?
Is it about the outing? The jalan raye? Or worse, 9TH OCTOBER? Heeellllll. I hate what I am thinking about. Pffft. Oh please, all the bad things, DISSAPEAR. Eventhough, I know that won't work. Foooooooooooool. -.-
After school, we went around the T-Mart to find what we want. End up, there's nothing found. Effah went to the tempat cukur kening but it was close. So she joined us. Noura, nazrah & yanti went to the toilet upstairs & left us. Soon, fateha, adilah & effah went back home. Let me summarise what yanti, shaffy, nazrah, ashiqin, atycar, noura & me did.
Je suis très désolé j'ai oublié votre nom.
Sat at the second level of T-Mart outside beauty saloon.
A cleaner came to us & we entertained her ( She's a nice nenek. But big mouth. Heh. )
She went off.
We got bored.
Nazrah & Ashiqin went off.
We find a new place outside a remote area. (still at the second level)
Played freeze.
Danced around.
1 or 2 hrs later, went to Brahouse (so? got problem uh? tgk coli pon nk tgk.)
Go buy drinks.
Goodbye.
So, that was all we did. May sound bored. But it was gereeek. We also talked about nnti da besar kahwin pat ne. Abe nnti pregnant maseh kua samesame. Abe da besar anak kite smer jadi bestfreinds. Abe nk buat ape during out first night with our future husbands. Cheeky kan dorang? hahaha. I love them.
Shaffy said: tgk kiri , tgk kanan , jgn luper atas bawah mari saye blanjer awak mkn , sbab hari ni awak lawah
heyyyy :DDD since tmr's the last paper, lets start getting things updated. bout the papers, next week i'll post bout it. dont wanna be too stressed out thinking of it.
hoho. currently chatting with shaffy. lemme give u an extract of what we're chatting about. haha.
{♥}ILLA says: exam bsk abes. {♥}ILLA says: no more excuses. {♥}ILLA says: online often. shaffyclownie says: hahahahah. {♥}ILLA says: haha shaffyclownie says: jambu kepe siaa {♥}ILLA says: sape, kau? kau memang la jambu, kate shaffy mah. shaffyclownie says: denial shaffyclownie says: lawah seh illa {♥}ILLA says: ape plak denial? shaffyclownie says: tkder paper shaffyclownie says: aghagha {♥}ILLA says: hahahahha {♥}ILLA says: pe saje. {♥}ILLA says: ehhhh! aku happy.
i said smth personal.
shaffyclownie says: inilah miracle of syawal {♥}ILLA says: padahal days bkn years. aku exaggerating jee. shaffyclownie says: buah nangka , buah cempedak , shaffy pon mcm phm jugak {♥}ILLA says: haha. tau pon. shaffyclownie says: haha. lawan pantun {♥}ILLA says: uhuh. jap aku pikir. {♥}ILLA says: aku peh smer lamelame kay. {♥}ILLA says: aku tk pndi sgt. shaffyclownie says: no sweat {♥}ILLA says: buah rambutan, buah kiwi, sedar jugak diri sendiri. {♥}ILLA says: haha.. kay lame. shaffyclownie says: ok pek shaffyclownie says: bagus tu shaffy sedar diri, at least tk bangga diri sendiri {♥}ILLA says: kene balas eh? shaffyclownie says: ye {♥}ILLA says: orang bobal sume beralas. aku tak tau cmne nk balas! {♥}ILLA says: haha shaffyclownie says: waa not bad shaffyclownie says: HMM {♥}ILLA says: haha {♥}ILLA says: balas cpat! shaffyclownie says: sabar2 {♥}ILLA says: aite, berpantun plak kite. shaffyclownie says: kalau tk tau balas , pergi lah isi borang maklum balas shaffyclownie says: balas cepat! shaffyclownie says: haha {♥}ILLA says: sabar aku pikir. {♥}ILLA says: ade keropok, ade kerepek. bobal jgn nak merepek! {♥}ILLA says: haha. cpat balas! shaffyclownie says: u play game , no shame shame , i tink ur pantun very lame shaffyclownie says: ur turn {♥}ILLA says: my pantun lame, or u now shameshame? because u know i win the game! {♥}ILLA says: haha. balik pade kau. shaffyclownie says: if u win the game , y does it take u soo long , to type the lame lame lame , plus plus stupid song {♥}ILLA says: i need brains to think. not just throwing stuffs in. & its not a song, you got it wrong. {♥}ILLA says: go go! reply. shaffyclownie says: dont u know , tt sajak or pantun is a song , so u try say soooo , to a long long song {♥}ILLA says: we were writing poems, instead of songs. ohmy ohmy! your so wrong! shaffyclownie says: dnt u know , tt songs n poems r the same , nt in snow , bt in this game shaffyclownie says: go go {♥}ILLA says: sabar! shaffyclownie says: kk shaffyclownie says: no sweat girl shaffyclownie says: steady {♥}ILLA says: eh eh. bkn song sey. no hard feelings eh. jgn nk paisey. {♥}ILLA says: rhyme tak? shaffyclownie says: yea bby shaffyclownie says: my turn {♥}ILLA says: ok go. shaffyclownie says: fine uh , just admit u're afraid of losing , from shaffy uh , then people will goo boring! shaffyclownie says: goo {♥}ILLA says: tk rhyme langsong babe. shaffyclownie says: u tink {♥}ILLA says: u wanna do again or i do now? shaffyclownie says: u do now {♥}ILLA says: excusez-moi. à qui effrayé de perdre. u ou moi ? pensez cela le bébé. {♥}ILLA says: phm tak? bahase french. shaffyclownie says: just first line {♥}ILLA says: hha. aku translate kay. {♥}ILLA says: excuse me. whose afraid of losing? u or me? think about it baby. {♥}ILLA says: ok done shaffyclownie says: if u wanna speak french , better dnt eh , cz u will trench , n lose eh shaffyclownie says: tgk aku cpat shaffyclownie says: ur turn again {♥}ILLA says: da tk phm. {♥}ILLA says: haha {♥}ILLA says: so what if i speak french? asal salah eh? u dont understand french? too bad eh.
moreover uh, ur twisting things around laa asal uh? dont change subject laa. {♥}ILLA says: go! shaffyclownie says: waa 8 lines pek {♥}ILLA says: haha {♥}ILLA says: lawan lincah. {♥}ILLA says: dari malay ke english ke french sak aku. shaffyclownie says: OKAY lets get things clear , wth r we dOIng now u now kindda fear fear fear , fear of thw WOW shaffyclownie says: goo shaffyclownie says: cute gmbr {♥}ILLA says: we were talking bout poems and songs. then suddenly about french, thats wrong. whose afraid of what, dong? oooooh, the fact you've given is so so wrong! shaffyclownie says: i tell u whose afraid ya ure afraid tts rite , u r nw im gonna say boo-ya when im drivin in my new car {♥}ILLA says: oooh, dgrdgr kau ade car? so what if you say boo-ya? im still not afraid laaa. don't have license, can drive uh? shaffyclownie says: ya i gt a car , y not happy is it not afraid not afraid uh like i car bit by bit
no license , i dont care still gonna drive it cz i dare n nt afraid of ziztz {♥}ILLA says: oh oh, so brave isit? oh what a lie. please laa stop it. tmr i dare you, you drive? {♥}ILLA says: go. shaffyclownie says: ya i know im brave ah dong u wanna me to drive , i drag u along so cn give me FIVE {♥}ILLA says: ni btol tk btol? bring me to my JB hse, will you? you pay the toll. kau kene tangkap aku lari dulu. {♥}ILLA says: bluek! shaffyclownie says: yep thts is a fact y cnt accept it ? i'll bring u to a pack , pack of wat ? pack of cheesy-bitz {♥}ILLA says: haha. {♥}ILLA says: kk. {♥}ILLA says: aku tk kalah, aku tk menang. aku malas nk pikir. tu pasal aku kasi kau menang.
ade lori ade bas, lain hari boleh balas. {♥}ILLA says: amcm? shaffyclownie says: maner ada lain kali , kalau nk serah diri , kalau tkt sakit hati , kiter continue lain hari {♥}ILLA says: aku tak sakit hati. kau phm ke tak ni? aku cume malas sekali. nak pikir byk kali.
aku anything kau nak win? kau better think. cause aku cnfm win {♥}ILLA says: eh lagi satu. shaffyclownie says: kalau kau nk aku win , maknenye ko kalah , so u leave me in , so ko bleh blah {♥}ILLA says: aku ni anything. yang previous thing. jgn byk thinking. aku only kidding kidding.
ade keropok, ade kerepek. kan aku da start aku peh merepek. shaffyclownie says: kalu dh tau , bgs lah tu , tapi ko der start , sbab ko mepek selalu , so now i wanna go n fart {♥}ILLA says: aku blah. kau tepuk tgn sebelah. tkde org nk tepuk ngn kau. aku kan da blah. shaffyclownie says: bla bla black sheep , have u any wool ? now i wanna go n sleep , n leave this stupid fool {♥}ILLA says: aku merepek. kau ape kurang nyee. jgn merepek. ew, busuk nyeeeeee! {♥}ILLA says: eh eh suka hati nmpk? aku kidding2. tapi ade limit ye kak. tk semestinye aku anything. shaffyclownie says: aku ke kau yg merepek ? kalau aku merepek pandai so skg aku nk pegi belikan kau kerepek , naik aku peh keldai {♥}ILLA says: s'pore ade keldai? eh lupe, kau pat zoo. ape bende kau pandai? aku da start sakit, hachooo! shaffyclownie says: kau luper sbab ko nyanyok , abeh nk hachoo hachoo , masih sempat fikir psl blog , aku mkn hi-chew {♥}ILLA says: saje saje pggl aku nyanyok? buat klaka pe girl? nenek-nenek pon rock. kau mkn hi-chew, pikir aku kesah pe? shaffyclownie says: u claimed tt u frget wat then now u wanna blame me huh ? i eat hi-chew for wat ? to forget bout this uhuh {♥}ILLA says: org lupe tk semestinye org nyanyok. sape blame kau? org lupe tu org STM. kau nk lupe psl ni? Oh wow. shaffyclownie says: kau nk step ckp paantun pat sini , tell u wat , forget it lah eh , ckp org tk sedar diri , nk rhyme kan pon tau eh {♥}ILLA says: ini bukan pantun syg oi. its normal sentences. serious. {♥}ILLA says: kan aku da ckp, aku mls nk pikir, kau degil nk continue asal? shaffyclownie says: aku kan semangat shaffyclownie says: dh lh rest shaffyclownie says: pnat shaffyclownie says: ckp biase {♥}ILLA says: haha {♥}ILLA says: tu uh {♥}ILLA says: eh! gmba kau cute shaffyclownie says: oi shaffyclownie says: sengajer nk buat aku kembang {♥}ILLA says: aku serious, cute sak. {♥}ILLA says: haha shaffyclownie says: dh dh
sikit peh mapeyk pantun kite. haha. funny siol. do this often uh. gerek. padehal bsk maths paper sak. hahah.
A guy who have been there for me for nearly 2 YEARS(?). Who knows me well. Very well. Basically, easy-going.
He claims he's hot, handsome, cute, etc. He owns Keemo :o
The truth is, I love his laugh. His smile, his jokes. And him. But maybe he's tooo hot that everybody is in love with him now. Hahahah. Sudahlah you. Cukop, nnti you kembang.
Here you go, Muhammad Hakeem. Happy Birthday to you. Happy 17th Birthday to you.
May all your dreams come true. & all the best in everything you do. Stay happy.
Happy Birthday to my dearest abang, Haikal. Hahaha. Random sey Illa. Kaykay.
I love Hakeem okay? Best.
From Syeddah: Hapie bdae, may you be hansem alwaes. b loved n hapie2 slalu! :-D
I didn't post for the past few days due to the examinations. It's not done yet. But for hari raya's sake, to all muslims:
SELAMAT HARI RAYA. JIKA ADA SALAH SILAP, HARAP DIMAAFKAN. COLLECT DUIT RAYE BYKBYK OKEHH!
& ONE MORE THING, JGN MKN BYK SGT. NNTI FATFAT! haha. LOVE YOU.
special message:
To Nur Afiqah & Muhammad Asha'ari. Happy celebrating your 7th months together. Koraaaang paling yang ter-gerek :DDD Trust each other no matter what others say, okehh!
Last long. Very very long. Hingga ke jinjang pelamin. Or even better... Hingga ke anak cucu ;D
Till death do both of you apart. Even better.. even death can't do you apart. Love you both. Abang & kakak. (:
Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
