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Written on Tuesday, May 5, 2009 @ 8:10 PM
Time check: 7:52 PM.
Do you believe in the saying, "Sometimes your best guy friend is the guy you'll fall for, be with"?
Well, I'm happy that I am over with Arep. Seriously, it's like, when I think about it, I feel stupid. Why would I waste my time on someone who doesn't love me back? But I guess, I have a little problem that I can't say because he knows my blog link. Easy said, I don't understand myself.
Yes, of course. He's the one who lifts me up when I'm down, give me a listening ear when I have no one to turn to, advice me when I needed some, pampers me with his drawings, entertain me when I can't sleep, "wipe" my tears when I cry. That's what I love about him. He's someone I can trust. Someone who changed my whole life. I swear.
But the unexpected happened. I got to know some things and maybe he heard it too. Whenever I look at him, I don't feel like as if we were what we used to be; best of friends. I feel awkward when he's around. I feel so.. What the hell Illa? Out of all guys.. him?! Yes, that way.
Tell you guys what, I'll let this feeling stay whenever they want to. And I'll just wait to see if rumors sometimes do come true.
And, thanks a lot babe. THANKS A LOT. You actually destroyed half of his hopes. Now, I don't like you & your boyfriend. Since you don't like him. Learn to keep opinions to yourself and not be a bitch. You really have no heart. And this is not for Marissa.
Labels: tsk.
Written on Monday, November 10, 2008 @ 9:43 PM
Song of the Time: Can I Have This Dance
Today, was not as exhausting as yesterday. During the workshop, brushed up on the previous choreography and add a little more. The rest will be finished in school. The dance is amazing! Haha. Today, I get to memorize all the steps. Except for the middle part where we have to jerk to the left. Heh. Its a jazz & a little of hip hop dance moves.
After the last workshop, we got a card. We got a free 1 month trial! Yay. Haha. Changed, old chang kee, MRT, bus & then home. Around 6+, I reached home. Received a phonecall. Maid picked up & it was for me. This police woman called up. Only certain people knows about it. I have to go to the police station tomorrow & I am super scared. But mum talked to the police & police just wanted to write a statement. Thats all. Police, it have been almost 2 years since it happened & suddenly you came back? Man, your giving me the trauma again. Grr. Spoil my holiday mood only.
So, watched Make It Happen. The dance moves was awesome. Haha. I'll try giving it a shot. Try only eh. Hhaa.
To Noura, I am sorry if your plans for the friends thing didnt work. We're just TOO busy. Especially the dancers. You got to understand us, right? We have to plan together. Not just pick out a few people from the group & plan. We'll try our best to make things work. The plans, I mean. Heeee.Labels: tsk.
Written on Friday, October 31, 2008 @ 3:39 PM
So, woke up early today to go to school & hand in my MD form. Brought Aliyah Baby along because I was going to send her straight to Apple Tree Playgroup. Saw Ms Azlina, she said Aliyah's cute. Hahah. Despite being late, the teacher actually smiled widely when she saw us walking towards Apple Tree Playgroup. Seriously, by the time I sent her, I started stretching my hands. Painful babe. From house to East Spring Sec to Apple Tree, I carried Aliyah. Nevermind, atleast I enjoyed doing that. I think sending & fetching Aliyah from school is gonna be my daily routine until her school holiday. Hurr~
Ok then, reached home, turn the TV on, switched from channels to channels until it was time to fetch Aliyah. Got back home, phone call from Fee saying she was coming over. Sorry if I didn't entertain you just now. Was really engrossed with you know what. Hahah.
I was bored. Today, nobody chatted with me. So being the kid in me, I went to Everything Girl official website & started playing makeovers & dress-ups. Got bored with it, so move on to REAL makeover & dress-up. I dressed Aliyah up into a baby princess. Haa. May sound lame, but Noura does it too okay. Found out she was playing makeover & dress-up games too! Yay us.
Nothing much happened today. I am sick & tired of today. I want tomorrow to come fast. Why? Because I'm gonna ride the Singapore Flyer! Woohoo.
I feel like black & white nowadays. Each time I start hoping, it will turn out to burn & crash. Each time I start giving up, somehow it turned out to be a happy ending. Why must it be that way? I can't possibly be thinking negative always right? But I would usually find myself at risks when I start thinking positive. Out of the blues, I will get butterflies. For hoping to much, I think I finally gave up. But for giving up, I am hoping for a happy ending. But for hoping for a happy ending, I know it will not turn out to be the way I want it to be. So tell me? How should I think? What should I do? I dont wanna lose the people I love you know. Do you?Labels: tsk.
Written on Friday, May 23, 2008 @ 8:09 AM
have not been updating quite awhile ehh? even nadhir asked. hah! nii untok dher ok? haha.
blimey. tomorrow's the biiig day! & im super nervous about it. not about the camp. but the dance which we're gonna put up for the class. seraaaaaaaaaaaaam.
i haven't pack for the camp yet seyy. today's gonna be so exhausting. i have to do alot of things. now, even before starting anything, i am having leg cramps & stomach cramps. wthhhh! why must it all start today? & i wonder whose gonna be my teammates for the camp. i want cousin-in-law! amirahhhhhhh (: pleasepleaseplease :D at least someone im close to. enough already about the camp.
just now, went to class to rearrange the tables for the big surprise party we're putting up for the mdm chai. ok, english aku suck. shit. hehs (: though, i find mdm chai irritating, she can be very understanding & yes.. she's a cutecute teacher.
mdm chai was left alone to takecare of the class, which is a handful, from Jan-March(?). now, when she already have a partner, mdm noreen, she have to migrate to Australia. awww.. farewell teacher. iloveyou. come back & visit ):
for SFL today, a speech & drama workshop was conducted. borrriiiinnnngggggg. we were treated like kindergartens. we have to pronouns fished, cooked, restaurant, etc. etc. ew. i felt soo.. immature =.- & the coach has an anger management problem. the chinese boys fooled aound, & guess what she shouted?
"can you stop playing with the FCUKING balloons!?" blimey. very scaryy indeed. have never heard anyone who teaches teenagers to shout vulgars. hah!
since the odd numbers have no coach for the workshop due to the missing in action scenario, the even numbers's coach combined us. so, she kindda take the whole class. padan mukeeee!~
shout somemore uh! nnti suare hilang baru tau (: haha.
& the workshop will be continued in term 3. blahhhs! i hate it oh so much.(noura's accent)
im done talking, aye?
& nadhir oh nadhir. when im not around, JGN FLIRT TAU! i smack your pantat. haha! kidding kidding. tpi, flirt tuu serious. hehs. ily ♥
byeeee, manusiaaa (:Labels: lom pape dah penat, tsk.
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Written on Tuesday, May 5, 2009 @ 8:10 PM
Time check: 7:52 PM.
Do you believe in the saying, "Sometimes your best guy friend is the guy you'll fall for, be with"?
Well, I'm happy that I am over with Arep. Seriously, it's like, when I think about it, I feel stupid. Why would I waste my time on someone who doesn't love me back? But I guess, I have a little problem that I can't say because he knows my blog link. Easy said, I don't understand myself.
Yes, of course. He's the one who lifts me up when I'm down, give me a listening ear when I have no one to turn to, advice me when I needed some, pampers me with his drawings, entertain me when I can't sleep, "wipe" my tears when I cry. That's what I love about him. He's someone I can trust. Someone who changed my whole life. I swear.
But the unexpected happened. I got to know some things and maybe he heard it too. Whenever I look at him, I don't feel like as if we were what we used to be; best of friends. I feel awkward when he's around. I feel so.. What the hell Illa? Out of all guys.. him?! Yes, that way.
Tell you guys what, I'll let this feeling stay whenever they want to. And I'll just wait to see if rumors sometimes do come true.
And, thanks a lot babe. THANKS A LOT. You actually destroyed half of his hopes. Now, I don't like you & your boyfriend. Since you don't like him. Learn to keep opinions to yourself and not be a bitch. You really have no heart. And this is not for Marissa.
Labels: tsk.
Written on Monday, November 10, 2008 @ 9:43 PM
Song of the Time: Can I Have This Dance
Today, was not as exhausting as yesterday. During the workshop, brushed up on the previous choreography and add a little more. The rest will be finished in school. The dance is amazing! Haha. Today, I get to memorize all the steps. Except for the middle part where we have to jerk to the left. Heh. Its a jazz & a little of hip hop dance moves.
After the last workshop, we got a card. We got a free 1 month trial! Yay. Haha. Changed, old chang kee, MRT, bus & then home. Around 6+, I reached home. Received a phonecall. Maid picked up & it was for me. This police woman called up. Only certain people knows about it. I have to go to the police station tomorrow & I am super scared. But mum talked to the police & police just wanted to write a statement. Thats all. Police, it have been almost 2 years since it happened & suddenly you came back? Man, your giving me the trauma again. Grr. Spoil my holiday mood only.
So, watched Make It Happen. The dance moves was awesome. Haha. I'll try giving it a shot. Try only eh. Hhaa.
To Noura, I am sorry if your plans for the friends thing didnt work. We're just TOO busy. Especially the dancers. You got to understand us, right? We have to plan together. Not just pick out a few people from the group & plan. We'll try our best to make things work. The plans, I mean. Heeee.Labels: tsk.
Written on Friday, October 31, 2008 @ 3:39 PM
So, woke up early today to go to school & hand in my MD form. Brought Aliyah Baby along because I was going to send her straight to Apple Tree Playgroup. Saw Ms Azlina, she said Aliyah's cute. Hahah. Despite being late, the teacher actually smiled widely when she saw us walking towards Apple Tree Playgroup. Seriously, by the time I sent her, I started stretching my hands. Painful babe. From house to East Spring Sec to Apple Tree, I carried Aliyah. Nevermind, atleast I enjoyed doing that. I think sending & fetching Aliyah from school is gonna be my daily routine until her school holiday. Hurr~
Ok then, reached home, turn the TV on, switched from channels to channels until it was time to fetch Aliyah. Got back home, phone call from Fee saying she was coming over. Sorry if I didn't entertain you just now. Was really engrossed with you know what. Hahah.
I was bored. Today, nobody chatted with me. So being the kid in me, I went to Everything Girl official website & started playing makeovers & dress-ups. Got bored with it, so move on to REAL makeover & dress-up. I dressed Aliyah up into a baby princess. Haa. May sound lame, but Noura does it too okay. Found out she was playing makeover & dress-up games too! Yay us.
Nothing much happened today. I am sick & tired of today. I want tomorrow to come fast. Why? Because I'm gonna ride the Singapore Flyer! Woohoo.
I feel like black & white nowadays. Each time I start hoping, it will turn out to burn & crash. Each time I start giving up, somehow it turned out to be a happy ending. Why must it be that way? I can't possibly be thinking negative always right? But I would usually find myself at risks when I start thinking positive. Out of the blues, I will get butterflies. For hoping to much, I think I finally gave up. But for giving up, I am hoping for a happy ending. But for hoping for a happy ending, I know it will not turn out to be the way I want it to be. So tell me? How should I think? What should I do? I dont wanna lose the people I love you know. Do you?Labels: tsk.
Written on Friday, May 23, 2008 @ 8:09 AM
have not been updating quite awhile ehh? even nadhir asked. hah! nii untok dher ok? haha.
blimey. tomorrow's the biiig day! & im super nervous about it. not about the camp. but the dance which we're gonna put up for the class. seraaaaaaaaaaaaam.
i haven't pack for the camp yet seyy. today's gonna be so exhausting. i have to do alot of things. now, even before starting anything, i am having leg cramps & stomach cramps. wthhhh! why must it all start today? & i wonder whose gonna be my teammates for the camp. i want cousin-in-law! amirahhhhhhh (: pleasepleaseplease :D at least someone im close to. enough already about the camp.
just now, went to class to rearrange the tables for the big surprise party we're putting up for the mdm chai. ok, english aku suck. shit. hehs (: though, i find mdm chai irritating, she can be very understanding & yes.. she's a cutecute teacher.
mdm chai was left alone to takecare of the class, which is a handful, from Jan-March(?). now, when she already have a partner, mdm noreen, she have to migrate to Australia. awww.. farewell teacher. iloveyou. come back & visit ):
for SFL today, a speech & drama workshop was conducted. borrriiiinnnngggggg. we were treated like kindergartens. we have to pronouns fished, cooked, restaurant, etc. etc. ew. i felt soo.. immature =.- & the coach has an anger management problem. the chinese boys fooled aound, & guess what she shouted?
"can you stop playing with the FCUKING balloons!?" blimey. very scaryy indeed. have never heard anyone who teaches teenagers to shout vulgars. hah!
since the odd numbers have no coach for the workshop due to the missing in action scenario, the even numbers's coach combined us. so, she kindda take the whole class. padan mukeeee!~
shout somemore uh! nnti suare hilang baru tau (: haha.
& the workshop will be continued in term 3. blahhhs! i hate it oh so much.(noura's accent)
im done talking, aye?
& nadhir oh nadhir. when im not around, JGN FLIRT TAU! i smack your pantat. haha! kidding kidding. tpi, flirt tuu serious. hehs. ily ♥
byeeee, manusiaaa (:Labels: lom pape dah penat, tsk.
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Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
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Here I am
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
i promise.
I feel like our world's been infected.
Quick Update ♥
It was almost perfect ):
You still are. And I still am.
Let's just hope he'd read this.
Yes, that's true.
I am very exhausted
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