I'm not a good sister because it's always me who pick up the fight. I'm not a good daughter because I'm stubborn than the rest. I'm not a good student because I talk a lot. I'm not a good dancer because I just suck at it. I'm not a good friend to my baby girls because I'm always not there for them. I'm not a good girlfriend because I once abused my ex's trust and love. And I regret EVERYTHING. I'm just sick and tired of this drama that's going on in my life. I hate the script, I hate the story. I hate the people involve because I always hurt them. I don't want to pretend anymore. I'm not perfect. Not even close. I am full of shit. I hate me. I hate Illa Syakilah. I hate myself for being emo. But I hate the things that happened to me which caused me to be like this more. And for that, I would like to say this once again...
EVERYTHING JUST SUCK TERRIBLY!
LOL
2:34 AM
*coughs* gotta clean up the mess.
Speaking of mess.. My life is now in a total mess. To-tal-mess. And sorry for not keeping this blog updated. I swear I don't have time to update. So now, I'm watching Adnan Semp-it. AND blogging at the same time.
Okay so, last Wednesday.. the seniors of Purbanira Seni stepped down. GOD, this is the time to buck up for the MAJOR N LEVELS. I am so freaking nervous. So far, I have been coping well with my studies. But surely he'll come and distract me. And it's so freaking annoying. How else can I forget you? Ugh.
Anyways, it's been 3 weeks since I put up with this stupid flu and cough. When the hell will it end? See! My life is in a total mess.
Honestly, I have nothing to share. Nothing interesting have been happening. My life's mundane. Really mundane. I need colors. Who wants to color my life? :D oh wait! I totally forgot. From next week onwards, my life will be twice as busy as now. So girls, understand understood okay.
Oh yes! The girls.. Marissa is obviously non-stop with her Justin Bieber. Now Atiqa's obsessed with Awal Ashaari. Shafiqa ehh.. hahahah! Nazrah, no news. Me, no one new. Okay I'm done blogging. BYE!
wow.
Written on Wednesday, April 21, 2010 @ 6:39 PM
Isn't this pretty? Godddd. Congratulations Khairy Solandres and Marissa and me! :D
LISTEN
Written on Monday, April 19, 2010 @ 1:08 AM
his voice is freaking nice. omggggg. listen!
you see through me
Written on Thursday, April 15, 2010 @ 11:45 PM
Firstly, you failed to convince me I am important in this world. In your life. You know what, nevermind. I don't think you even want to hear my opinion. I am not jealous. I am just fucking pissed off on what you said to me. Fucking pissed off.
Today (according to time), Atiqa Subaby, Shafiqa and I were sick. We were in the same situation. Throat pain, flu and we were freezing even at the highest room temperature. We slept almost in every period cause we were too weak. Yeah. But today, with this kind of health, YELLOW HOUSE CHEERLEADERS CLINCHED CHAMPIONSHIP!
I am very very proud of all of you. ALL of you. I really appreciate your commitment in this team. Let's not put this bond we've created aside. Once in a while, we should organise some outings. Also very much thanks especially to Fadick and Akhbar for replacing the two bastards who left us hanging at the very last minute.
I'm sorry I don't sound happy. Some bitch just popped my happy bubble. Fuck her.
Let's perform a new routine.
2:12 AM
Dear dancers, get ready to learn a new routine. Cause guess what? I just fixed a performance! Yeah, Atiqa.. I'll show you all the steps with the song. It's freaking nice I tell you. Hehe.
I'm gonna make it useful
12:55 AM
Babygirls, my flu is preventing me from sleeping. So guess what I'm gonna do? I'm gonna start off with our book. Hehe.
Yes, it is.
12:12 AM
Oh god. My flu, cough and sore throat is killing me. I am having a migraine and I've tried my very best to sleep it away but to no avail. Somebody, tell me what to do! Don't make me fall sick on the day I have to dance and cheer, please.
I am going to write a letter to Miss Liu and explain to her why it is important for me to dance. Dancing has always been my passion and what if this is my last year in East Spring? At least I have a last dance in front of the crowd. Furthermore, it has always been a pleasure for me to dance. No pain, no gain. I want to dance. Yes, I am stubborn. So what? I want to dance. The end.
Standby tissues. I'm gonna need lots of it. Mucus, ew! Haha.
And to all the other houses,
BREAK A LEG (:
we are proud of you say we are proud of you.
Win or lose, at least you've done your best and as long as you had fun it's worth it. So, go go! Haha. Looking forward to your performances. *winks*
If that's what you want
Written on Wednesday, April 14, 2010 @ 6:27 PM
My ankle is better now. Waaaay better. And I am so fucking happy. Why? Because Izzathy told me that we will be dancing for YOG event. Like omg, seriously I want! And and, tomorrow I'll be performing with my cheerleaders. Yellow, go go! I love you guys oh so much. We will leave the place with so much pride, I promise you that (:
Anyhoos, "E past guy" has successfully grab my fullest attention. I've been wondering who he is. He can't be A neither can he be H. I mean, yeah.. when I said that I was sad because he didn't care, it was meant for A. And I know H knows that. So, who is it? The way he type is so not like A but like H. And that's why I can't stop thinking bout this.
What else should I talk about eh? Oh yes, my voice. I'm losing it! And I'm down with flu. And you know I hate these kindda stuff. It makes my voice sound like Squidward and I can't sing! I tried just now. Omg, pitching lari babe.
So today was the Speech Day rehearsal and it was awesome. The uniform groups did well and the band performed greatly. From outside, it seems as though our school was having a party with the music playing at full blast. Totally cool. But the guest-of-honor, boooriiinngggg.
You know what, I guess I have this real great passion for dancing. I realise that if I have to do something that is relevant to dancing, I'd try to get over my obstacles or fears or pains just to perform. And you know what, I'm happy. Very happy.
So true, omg.
12:47 AM
The past may play a role in your love affairs today, Leo, and you are feeling extremely connected to those that are communicating with you. If you are single, you may feel the urge to write an email or make a phone call to someone from your history. This renewed connection will be favorable for you so long as you enter this experience with a dose of objectivity. Attached? Some memories and old feelings are going to surface now that may leave you questioning some key issues in your relationship. Try to recall those old thoughts and feelings so that you can remember the love that brought you here in the first place.
Things are taking a serious tone in your love affairs, Leo, and you will be making some serious changes in this period. Whether you are single or attached, you can expect some new beginnings on the road ahead, and you will be making some changes that are long lasting. These decisions will stem from mistakes you have learned from in the past, and will have a profound effect on all of your current relationships. This may involve a change of residence, marriage, or a break from something long term that hasn't been working for some time. During these changes you will undergo some serious self analysis and you will question the direction you are taking. You are on the right path, and your long term results are favored at this time regardless of what your final answer may be.
It's all about ______.
Written on Tuesday, April 13, 2010 @ 1:06 PM
So, I haven't been updating my blog for 2 days. Is it? Yeah, whatever. My bad, anyways. I'll try keeping you guys updated about my life. That is, if you read. Hah. Yesterday was really upsetting. I don't get to practice my cheer steps with the cheerleaders. Just because of my ankle. Then, hopefully, I still get to perform for Sri Warisan's Tunas Berseni. It all depends on the ankle. Yes, the ankle.
During the upcoming YOG, Cik Som has assigned my group and I to help out with the event. I don't know in terms of what, though. I hope it's dancing! Hehe. Abang Adel supposedly wanted to assign sister to an event or two either this or the next coming week. However, school's coming her way. So she ain't free.
I am supposed to express my view on International Friendship Day on my other blog (my school blog). Instead, I'm spending and risking my time for you readers. So please, tag la!
I'm sad he doesn't care but at the same time, I'm happy I didn't get affected by it. He's my past right? Why would I see him in my future? My future will be waaay better without him. My future, I will see a better looking guy as compared to him. Yes. What I say is what I get.
Not to get excited or whatever, but these few days, his presence don't distract me anymore. Okay, I want to update my school blog now. Or I'll have to stay back and complete it. Alone. Good bye babies. (:
Hello hello! My name's Dibo!
Written on Saturday, April 10, 2010 @ 5:44 PM
Dibo the Gift Dragon made me wanna bake cookies. So here I am, baking cookies. Who wants some? Hehe.
XOXO..
Written on Monday, April 5, 2010 @ 6:03 PM
Saaaaaaaaaaaap!! Nurshafiqa here!
Idontknow if she's aware of me,
sneaking into her account. Heh but hell,
I know she wont mind. Ohh yeaa.
Its my birthday todaay! Heehee. Well,
Im left with only 5 hours and 52 minutes
to celebrate. Heh but whatever,
I can have all my life, just celebrating it right.
Oh yeaa and babe, today, you did it.
You held your words. You kept me going and
smiling all along. Hah. And with your 'L' kan babe.
And me with my 'M'. Hahaha!
Ohh well,ILOVEYOUUU BABYGIRL!
<33333333333
LOTS OF LOVE
1:19 AM
SHAFIQAAAA!
I know now you must be wondering, when the hell was this photo taken?
Haha, see that girl on the right side? Aren't she adorable, that babygirl of mine?
Today's her 16th birthday and I would like to wish her a happy happy birthday.
Like I said, NEVER hesitate to come to me if there's anything.
You are a girl with a very very big and strong heart, don't let anybody take advantage of it.
Today, I want to see you smile like a princess and don't let anyone ruin your day.
Okay? I love you very much babygirl. (:
May all your wishes and dreams come true.
Don't mind those bastards. After all, we were first born to this world without them.
So why do we need them now on our birthday?
G mampos laa dorg eh, Shaf? ^^
ughh.
Written on Friday, April 2, 2010 @ 7:50 PM
Okay so, I'm now near the fish pond waiting for my mom who is visiting my granny at her ward. I'm listening to sister talking while eating my mr bean, cheese flavor.
Currently, Shafiqa, Nazrah and I are feeling very down. Very very down. Dilemma la people. Seriously, fuck uh. The same old thang. Tried many many ways to avoid this stupid dilemma. But to no avail. Sheesh! I'm now in the car on the way home. Hah. Yes uh, can sleep my misery away.
Yesterday was the most fucking annoying day. At one moment, I was damn nervous, then I was crying then I ended up laughing. I was so devastated yesterday. A joke that ended up being the answer to my every question. Thanks a lot. You ruined my April.
I'm reaching home soon. Gonna buy some bean curd for tomorrow first. Granny's craving for it(:
-.-
Written on Tuesday, April 27, 2010 @ 12:20 AM
HAISS.
I'm not listening.
Written on Sunday, April 25, 2010 @ 9:00 PM
EVERYTHING JUST SUCK TERRIBLY!
I'm not a good sister because it's always me who pick up the fight. I'm not a good daughter because I'm stubborn than the rest. I'm not a good student because I talk a lot. I'm not a good dancer because I just suck at it. I'm not a good friend to my baby girls because I'm always not there for them. I'm not a good girlfriend because I once abused my ex's trust and love. And I regret EVERYTHING. I'm just sick and tired of this drama that's going on in my life. I hate the script, I hate the story. I hate the people involve because I always hurt them. I don't want to pretend anymore. I'm not perfect. Not even close. I am full of shit. I hate me. I hate Illa Syakilah. I hate myself for being emo. But I hate the things that happened to me which caused me to be like this more. And for that, I would like to say this once again...
EVERYTHING JUST SUCK TERRIBLY!
LOL
2:34 AM
*coughs* gotta clean up the mess.
Speaking of mess.. My life is now in a total mess. To-tal-mess. And sorry for not keeping this blog updated. I swear I don't have time to update. So now, I'm watching Adnan Semp-it. AND blogging at the same time.
Okay so, last Wednesday.. the seniors of Purbanira Seni stepped down. GOD, this is the time to buck up for the MAJOR N LEVELS. I am so freaking nervous. So far, I have been coping well with my studies. But surely he'll come and distract me. And it's so freaking annoying. How else can I forget you? Ugh.
Anyways, it's been 3 weeks since I put up with this stupid flu and cough. When the hell will it end? See! My life is in a total mess.
Honestly, I have nothing to share. Nothing interesting have been happening. My life's mundane. Really mundane. I need colors. Who wants to color my life? :D oh wait! I totally forgot. From next week onwards, my life will be twice as busy as now. So girls, understand understood okay.
Oh yes! The girls.. Marissa is obviously non-stop with her Justin Bieber. Now Atiqa's obsessed with Awal Ashaari. Shafiqa ehh.. hahahah! Nazrah, no news. Me, no one new. Okay I'm done blogging. BYE!
wow.
Written on Wednesday, April 21, 2010 @ 6:39 PM
Isn't this pretty? Godddd. Congratulations Khairy Solandres and Marissa and me! :D
LISTEN
Written on Monday, April 19, 2010 @ 1:08 AM
his voice is freaking nice. omggggg. listen!
you see through me
Written on Thursday, April 15, 2010 @ 11:45 PM
Firstly, you failed to convince me I am important in this world. In your life. You know what, nevermind. I don't think you even want to hear my opinion. I am not jealous. I am just fucking pissed off on what you said to me. Fucking pissed off.
Today (according to time), Atiqa Subaby, Shafiqa and I were sick. We were in the same situation. Throat pain, flu and we were freezing even at the highest room temperature. We slept almost in every period cause we were too weak. Yeah. But today, with this kind of health, YELLOW HOUSE CHEERLEADERS CLINCHED CHAMPIONSHIP!
I am very very proud of all of you. ALL of you. I really appreciate your commitment in this team. Let's not put this bond we've created aside. Once in a while, we should organise some outings. Also very much thanks especially to Fadick and Akhbar for replacing the two bastards who left us hanging at the very last minute.
I'm sorry I don't sound happy. Some bitch just popped my happy bubble. Fuck her.
Let's perform a new routine.
2:12 AM
Dear dancers, get ready to learn a new routine. Cause guess what? I just fixed a performance! Yeah, Atiqa.. I'll show you all the steps with the song. It's freaking nice I tell you. Hehe.
I'm gonna make it useful
12:55 AM
Babygirls, my flu is preventing me from sleeping. So guess what I'm gonna do? I'm gonna start off with our book. Hehe.
Yes, it is.
12:12 AM
Oh god. My flu, cough and sore throat is killing me. I am having a migraine and I've tried my very best to sleep it away but to no avail. Somebody, tell me what to do! Don't make me fall sick on the day I have to dance and cheer, please.
I am going to write a letter to Miss Liu and explain to her why it is important for me to dance. Dancing has always been my passion and what if this is my last year in East Spring? At least I have a last dance in front of the crowd. Furthermore, it has always been a pleasure for me to dance. No pain, no gain. I want to dance. Yes, I am stubborn. So what? I want to dance. The end.
Standby tissues. I'm gonna need lots of it. Mucus, ew! Haha.
And to all the other houses,
BREAK A LEG (:
we are proud of you say we are proud of you.
Win or lose, at least you've done your best and as long as you had fun it's worth it. So, go go! Haha. Looking forward to your performances. *winks*
If that's what you want
Written on Wednesday, April 14, 2010 @ 6:27 PM
My ankle is better now. Waaaay better. And I am so fucking happy. Why? Because Izzathy told me that we will be dancing for YOG event. Like omg, seriously I want! And and, tomorrow I'll be performing with my cheerleaders. Yellow, go go! I love you guys oh so much. We will leave the place with so much pride, I promise you that (:
Anyhoos, "E past guy" has successfully grab my fullest attention. I've been wondering who he is. He can't be A neither can he be H. I mean, yeah.. when I said that I was sad because he didn't care, it was meant for A. And I know H knows that. So, who is it? The way he type is so not like A but like H. And that's why I can't stop thinking bout this.
What else should I talk about eh? Oh yes, my voice. I'm losing it! And I'm down with flu. And you know I hate these kindda stuff. It makes my voice sound like Squidward and I can't sing! I tried just now. Omg, pitching lari babe.
So today was the Speech Day rehearsal and it was awesome. The uniform groups did well and the band performed greatly. From outside, it seems as though our school was having a party with the music playing at full blast. Totally cool. But the guest-of-honor, boooriiinngggg.
You know what, I guess I have this real great passion for dancing. I realise that if I have to do something that is relevant to dancing, I'd try to get over my obstacles or fears or pains just to perform. And you know what, I'm happy. Very happy.
So true, omg.
12:47 AM
The past may play a role in your love affairs today, Leo, and you are feeling extremely connected to those that are communicating with you. If you are single, you may feel the urge to write an email or make a phone call to someone from your history. This renewed connection will be favorable for you so long as you enter this experience with a dose of objectivity. Attached? Some memories and old feelings are going to surface now that may leave you questioning some key issues in your relationship. Try to recall those old thoughts and feelings so that you can remember the love that brought you here in the first place.
Things are taking a serious tone in your love affairs, Leo, and you will be making some serious changes in this period. Whether you are single or attached, you can expect some new beginnings on the road ahead, and you will be making some changes that are long lasting. These decisions will stem from mistakes you have learned from in the past, and will have a profound effect on all of your current relationships. This may involve a change of residence, marriage, or a break from something long term that hasn't been working for some time. During these changes you will undergo some serious self analysis and you will question the direction you are taking. You are on the right path, and your long term results are favored at this time regardless of what your final answer may be.
It's all about ______.
Written on Tuesday, April 13, 2010 @ 1:06 PM
So, I haven't been updating my blog for 2 days. Is it? Yeah, whatever. My bad, anyways. I'll try keeping you guys updated about my life. That is, if you read. Hah. Yesterday was really upsetting. I don't get to practice my cheer steps with the cheerleaders. Just because of my ankle. Then, hopefully, I still get to perform for Sri Warisan's Tunas Berseni. It all depends on the ankle. Yes, the ankle.
During the upcoming YOG, Cik Som has assigned my group and I to help out with the event. I don't know in terms of what, though. I hope it's dancing! Hehe. Abang Adel supposedly wanted to assign sister to an event or two either this or the next coming week. However, school's coming her way. So she ain't free.
I am supposed to express my view on International Friendship Day on my other blog (my school blog). Instead, I'm spending and risking my time for you readers. So please, tag la!
I'm sad he doesn't care but at the same time, I'm happy I didn't get affected by it. He's my past right? Why would I see him in my future? My future will be waaay better without him. My future, I will see a better looking guy as compared to him. Yes. What I say is what I get.
Not to get excited or whatever, but these few days, his presence don't distract me anymore. Okay, I want to update my school blog now. Or I'll have to stay back and complete it. Alone. Good bye babies. (:
Hello hello! My name's Dibo!
Written on Saturday, April 10, 2010 @ 5:44 PM
Dibo the Gift Dragon made me wanna bake cookies. So here I am, baking cookies. Who wants some? Hehe.
XOXO..
Written on Monday, April 5, 2010 @ 6:03 PM
Saaaaaaaaaaaap!! Nurshafiqa here!
Idontknow if she's aware of me,
sneaking into her account. Heh but hell,
I know she wont mind. Ohh yeaa.
Its my birthday todaay! Heehee. Well,
Im left with only 5 hours and 52 minutes
to celebrate. Heh but whatever,
I can have all my life, just celebrating it right.
Oh yeaa and babe, today, you did it.
You held your words. You kept me going and
smiling all along. Hah. And with your 'L' kan babe.
And me with my 'M'. Hahaha!
Ohh well,ILOVEYOUUU BABYGIRL!
<33333333333
LOTS OF LOVE
1:19 AM
SHAFIQAAAA!
I know now you must be wondering, when the hell was this photo taken?
Haha, see that girl on the right side? Aren't she adorable, that babygirl of mine?
Today's her 16th birthday and I would like to wish her a happy happy birthday.
Like I said, NEVER hesitate to come to me if there's anything.
You are a girl with a very very big and strong heart, don't let anybody take advantage of it.
Today, I want to see you smile like a princess and don't let anyone ruin your day.
Okay? I love you very much babygirl. (:
May all your wishes and dreams come true.
Don't mind those bastards. After all, we were first born to this world without them.
So why do we need them now on our birthday?
G mampos laa dorg eh, Shaf? ^^
ughh.
Written on Friday, April 2, 2010 @ 7:50 PM
Okay so, I'm now near the fish pond waiting for my mom who is visiting my granny at her ward. I'm listening to sister talking while eating my mr bean, cheese flavor.
Currently, Shafiqa, Nazrah and I are feeling very down. Very very down. Dilemma la people. Seriously, fuck uh. The same old thang. Tried many many ways to avoid this stupid dilemma. But to no avail. Sheesh! I'm now in the car on the way home. Hah. Yes uh, can sleep my misery away.
Yesterday was the most fucking annoying day. At one moment, I was damn nervous, then I was crying then I ended up laughing. I was so devastated yesterday. A joke that ended up being the answer to my every question. Thanks a lot. You ruined my April.
I'm reaching home soon. Gonna buy some bean curd for tomorrow first. Granny's craving for it(:
Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
