I went for bloghopping just now, right after my last update. I found this written on Aniela Khan's blog & I find it really really true.
"every girl has that (one) boy that they'll never get over, that who makes you laugh, the one who gives you butterflies, just when someone says his name, that remembers all the things you think you say are stupid, and reminds you about it months from now, the one who has his name written all over your heart, the one who you compare to every guy, the one you never get sick of talking or hearing about, the one that you cry over and over about, the one that no one can understand,
why him? that everyone thinks you can do better, the one you ask "why her and not me?" the one when you first saw him you knew you loved him, the one that in some way ends up...not being yours."
Haha. Wondering who already? Don't waste your time, I'm sick of having boyfriends. & I know I said that like a lot of times, yet I still get a boyfriend. But yeah, when your all alone, all you need is a boyfriend. When he's not there, all you need is space, time & tears. When he just realized that you matter, he'll come running to you, sometimes kneeling. Then, by that period of time, feelings have faded. It's not meant to be & all you can say is, "I gave you a chance & you let me down." Then, when he tell others his story, others would be thinking, "Omg, she's a plain bastard."Not knowing what he's done to you that kept you quiet all the time because you loved him too much & you just have to take back your love.
Or maybe..
It's you who love him so much. But he doesn't know. I mean, he knows your feelings. But you feel like a fool. You got head over heels for him. Your heart melts upon looking at his eyes or upon hearing his candylike words. Too bad they're just making you feel good bout it & when they get tired of everything, they'd just give you a message thru any technology.. for example, SMS, EMAIL. They may think they told you off nicely not knowing that deep inside you, your hearts have been crushed into a million pieces. He left you hanging. So bad, that you could never ever forget him. So bad that you could never ever get your heart back together. And the weird part is, you still love him. And only he's the one who can heal that broken heart & you'd forgive him no matter what bad deed he's done to you. That's how far a girl could love you, guys.
Open you eyes and heart wide. Some girls may be such an asshole. But that doesn't mean we're all the same. Treat them like the only girl you know. The princess & your the prince. Not like a toy or a friend. Because when they say they love you, they really do.
I dont know why I'm talking this way. Haha! Bye.
Lalu bilang I love you, padaku.
6:01 PM
Life is too short
To be anything but happy
I am not sure where I'm going right now. Life's been full of puzzles & sums, some not even solved yet. Today & yesterday, stayed home all the way. Obviously bored, what to do. Broke up with him recently due to some reasons. Even though he's given me space, I still needed a break. I need space!
The past is haunting me down. Everything's coming back. I don't want another problem, but I guess I am just to afraid that bad things will happen again, if I accept the past - AGAIN.
________, you sure bout this? Btw, you've been really helpful. Never expected you to come back, though.
There's this feeling. An unusual feeling. That is lingering within me, myself and I. He's not understanding. I mean, he's not trying to understand me. I don't want this to spoil my first day of fasting. Moving on..
As requested, I am going to update about an old friend.
Muhammad Irfan Bin Ibrahim. An annoying yet sweet guy. I call him gemok and spaghetti boy. Why? He likes to eat non-stop & his favourite dish is Spaghetti. Isn't that obvious enough?
Apparently, he have high-metabolism. He's not expanding! But I believe his gaining weight. Hehe. It's hard for me to hear him say, "I want to sleep." So, I guess he doesn't like to sleep much.
He calls me budak kecik, ladyboss, lady short boss & zombie. He thinks his tall, too bad he's not ;p He used to be the short in primary school last time. Whoops! I had to say that. Haa.
Please visit the website http://illababyy.multiply.com/photos and click on OMG HEARTS to view the pictures of my friends and I dissecting a heart.
Pressing on..
For the past few days, some of us have been staying back to practice the dance. I am so thankful to have friends who can catch up on dance steps in a blink of an eye. Surprisingly, we finished 1 minute out of 3 minutes in just one day. That's two steps ahead, hello!
Guess what? 'Aliyah is sucha nasty lil' girl. She sat on me and started humping. What the hell. Where did this 4 year old kid learn it from? Not me, definitely! Haha. I swear. She's real nasty. Cousins from Jakarta paid us a surprise visit. Nek Nasihah (?) & Marora. She's known as Lola among her people. They'll be staying over till Monday. Well, I'm Loca you guys.
Hey, don't laugh! You gotta respect the diwa~
Nevermind, you guys won't get me. It's an inside joke. Heheh. Yay! Free Indonesian lessons. I have to speak a little of Indon when I'm with Lola. She can't talk Malay. Only Nek Nasihah (?) because she lived in Singapur once. I got nothing much to say. I guess we would have to bring Lola go shopping one of these days. ^-^
Well, here goes nothing! Dumbass! Pause my playlist first.
When Shaffy & I was still disgusted.
First try, quite okay.
Second try, good attempt. No worries Mar, everybody make mistakes. You dance quite well, trust me (:
Mar, we got your back! Be confident, prettyhead (: Even I make mistakes.
Marissa took a break. Shaffy became the "bitch". Shaffy, don't remember the steps. Enjoy it, sexy!~ ;DD
This is Noura and Illa's is currently away at Malaysia. And at the same time, so is her charming boyfriend, Akhbar. What a coincidence? Almost too much of a coincidence, perhaps? Hmmm.
She will be back probably not long from now. So yeah, get me something while you're at it, alr darl? xD
Honestly, I really dk why she told me to update her blog, of all people. Its not like I have a clue of what's currently going on in her life.
And Im kindda forced to this. Its already 11.44pm and I really wanna sleep. SLEEEEPPPP. Something that I suspect you're doing now, ILLA SYAKILAH!!!
Hello everyone. Sorry for not updating. We'll be at my family's secret hideout during the short holiday. So is baby. He's in Malacca with his family. Bagos laa tu, dua2 pat malaysia -.-
Hmm.. Thanks to my dad's lappy & the new wireless internet connection, I can update my blog. Or I'd be stucked here doing nothing. Luckily, theres food ;DD
HAPPY BELATED 3 MONTHS BABYLOVE. I LOVE YOU & I REALLY DO. TRUST ME, I'M BEHAVING & I'M MISSING YOU REAL BAD.
BY, THANKS FOR BEING THERE WHENEVER I NEED YOU. THERE'S NOTHING I COULD SAY OR DO TO MAKE YOU FEEL WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME. ALL THE PAIN & SHITS, YOU WERE STILL THERE. YOU DIDN'T SAY GOODBYE. WHAT THE HELL, ILLA. STOP BEING SO SENSITIVE! WHATEVER IT IS BABY, I PROMISE YOU, I WILL NEVER EVER LEAVE YOU AGAIN.
You've got Syafa with you. Take care of her and don't let her down. I love my boyfriend and I know you love Syafa too. Whatever it is, she's yours now. Stay strong. I'll always love you, bestfriend. (:
It is especially important for you to be careful about your stomach and food today, Leo. There is a caution here about eating things you have not eaten before, or eating in restaurants in general. Try to stick with what you make at home, and make sure of the quality before you bite down. This is the kind of energy that can turn a very pleasant time into a difficult one. Your body is very sensitive: try to avoid anything you're not used to, or anything that you are, but haven't been aware of your difficulty with it. This would not be a day to go for the exotic.
This one here, is my Daily Horoscope.
Today there is a sense of novelty or newness in the air for Leo. If you are attached, this may come across an opportunity to take things to the next level, or to try something new with your partner that you've never done before. The single Leo can expect to run into somone new that creates more than a few sparks flying, and a heightened sense of attractiveness will take precedence today. Your eyes are much more open than usual today, and so pay attention to small signals that may be sent your way. Good things do come in small packages, especially on days like today. And this one here, is my Love Horoscope. Hahaha. Somewhat true. Not bad, not bad.
Headed to Simei after school. Owe baby a kiss and he owe me a hug! Yeah. Haha. Nothing much today, just that I have been opening my eyes wide for I don't know what reason. Sister & I, doing fine. Thanks Azira & Shasha. (:
There'll be Captain's Ball match in school on Friday. I'm losing my touch on balls. Haha. I suddenly suck at catching balls. That pissed me off! Tsk.
Tomorrow, going to Net to buy sister her desired clothes then head to Simei again to buy my stuffs. That's all. I have nothing to say. Today is rather mundane.
I went for bloghopping just now, right after my last update. I found this written on Aniela Khan's blog & I find it really really true.
"every girl has that (one) boy that they'll never get over, that who makes you laugh, the one who gives you butterflies, just when someone says his name, that remembers all the things you think you say are stupid, and reminds you about it months from now, the one who has his name written all over your heart, the one who you compare to every guy, the one you never get sick of talking or hearing about, the one that you cry over and over about, the one that no one can understand,
why him? that everyone thinks you can do better, the one you ask "why her and not me?" the one when you first saw him you knew you loved him, the one that in some way ends up...not being yours."
Haha. Wondering who already? Don't waste your time, I'm sick of having boyfriends. & I know I said that like a lot of times, yet I still get a boyfriend. But yeah, when your all alone, all you need is a boyfriend. When he's not there, all you need is space, time & tears. When he just realized that you matter, he'll come running to you, sometimes kneeling. Then, by that period of time, feelings have faded. It's not meant to be & all you can say is, "I gave you a chance & you let me down." Then, when he tell others his story, others would be thinking, "Omg, she's a plain bastard."Not knowing what he's done to you that kept you quiet all the time because you loved him too much & you just have to take back your love.
Or maybe..
It's you who love him so much. But he doesn't know. I mean, he knows your feelings. But you feel like a fool. You got head over heels for him. Your heart melts upon looking at his eyes or upon hearing his candylike words. Too bad they're just making you feel good bout it & when they get tired of everything, they'd just give you a message thru any technology.. for example, SMS, EMAIL. They may think they told you off nicely not knowing that deep inside you, your hearts have been crushed into a million pieces. He left you hanging. So bad, that you could never ever forget him. So bad that you could never ever get your heart back together. And the weird part is, you still love him. And only he's the one who can heal that broken heart & you'd forgive him no matter what bad deed he's done to you. That's how far a girl could love you, guys.
Open you eyes and heart wide. Some girls may be such an asshole. But that doesn't mean we're all the same. Treat them like the only girl you know. The princess & your the prince. Not like a toy or a friend. Because when they say they love you, they really do.
I dont know why I'm talking this way. Haha! Bye.
Lalu bilang I love you, padaku.
6:01 PM
Life is too short
To be anything but happy
I am not sure where I'm going right now. Life's been full of puzzles & sums, some not even solved yet. Today & yesterday, stayed home all the way. Obviously bored, what to do. Broke up with him recently due to some reasons. Even though he's given me space, I still needed a break. I need space!
The past is haunting me down. Everything's coming back. I don't want another problem, but I guess I am just to afraid that bad things will happen again, if I accept the past - AGAIN.
________, you sure bout this? Btw, you've been really helpful. Never expected you to come back, though.
There's this feeling. An unusual feeling. That is lingering within me, myself and I. He's not understanding. I mean, he's not trying to understand me. I don't want this to spoil my first day of fasting. Moving on..
As requested, I am going to update about an old friend.
Muhammad Irfan Bin Ibrahim. An annoying yet sweet guy. I call him gemok and spaghetti boy. Why? He likes to eat non-stop & his favourite dish is Spaghetti. Isn't that obvious enough?
Apparently, he have high-metabolism. He's not expanding! But I believe his gaining weight. Hehe. It's hard for me to hear him say, "I want to sleep." So, I guess he doesn't like to sleep much.
He calls me budak kecik, ladyboss, lady short boss & zombie. He thinks his tall, too bad he's not ;p He used to be the short in primary school last time. Whoops! I had to say that. Haa.
Please visit the website http://illababyy.multiply.com/photos and click on OMG HEARTS to view the pictures of my friends and I dissecting a heart.
Pressing on..
For the past few days, some of us have been staying back to practice the dance. I am so thankful to have friends who can catch up on dance steps in a blink of an eye. Surprisingly, we finished 1 minute out of 3 minutes in just one day. That's two steps ahead, hello!
Guess what? 'Aliyah is sucha nasty lil' girl. She sat on me and started humping. What the hell. Where did this 4 year old kid learn it from? Not me, definitely! Haha. I swear. She's real nasty. Cousins from Jakarta paid us a surprise visit. Nek Nasihah (?) & Marora. She's known as Lola among her people. They'll be staying over till Monday. Well, I'm Loca you guys.
Hey, don't laugh! You gotta respect the diwa~
Nevermind, you guys won't get me. It's an inside joke. Heheh. Yay! Free Indonesian lessons. I have to speak a little of Indon when I'm with Lola. She can't talk Malay. Only Nek Nasihah (?) because she lived in Singapur once. I got nothing much to say. I guess we would have to bring Lola go shopping one of these days. ^-^
Well, here goes nothing! Dumbass! Pause my playlist first.
When Shaffy & I was still disgusted.
First try, quite okay.
Second try, good attempt. No worries Mar, everybody make mistakes. You dance quite well, trust me (:
Mar, we got your back! Be confident, prettyhead (: Even I make mistakes.
Marissa took a break. Shaffy became the "bitch". Shaffy, don't remember the steps. Enjoy it, sexy!~ ;DD
This is Noura and Illa's is currently away at Malaysia. And at the same time, so is her charming boyfriend, Akhbar. What a coincidence? Almost too much of a coincidence, perhaps? Hmmm.
She will be back probably not long from now. So yeah, get me something while you're at it, alr darl? xD
Honestly, I really dk why she told me to update her blog, of all people. Its not like I have a clue of what's currently going on in her life.
And Im kindda forced to this. Its already 11.44pm and I really wanna sleep. SLEEEEPPPP. Something that I suspect you're doing now, ILLA SYAKILAH!!!
Hello everyone. Sorry for not updating. We'll be at my family's secret hideout during the short holiday. So is baby. He's in Malacca with his family. Bagos laa tu, dua2 pat malaysia -.-
Hmm.. Thanks to my dad's lappy & the new wireless internet connection, I can update my blog. Or I'd be stucked here doing nothing. Luckily, theres food ;DD
HAPPY BELATED 3 MONTHS BABYLOVE. I LOVE YOU & I REALLY DO. TRUST ME, I'M BEHAVING & I'M MISSING YOU REAL BAD.
BY, THANKS FOR BEING THERE WHENEVER I NEED YOU. THERE'S NOTHING I COULD SAY OR DO TO MAKE YOU FEEL WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME. ALL THE PAIN & SHITS, YOU WERE STILL THERE. YOU DIDN'T SAY GOODBYE. WHAT THE HELL, ILLA. STOP BEING SO SENSITIVE! WHATEVER IT IS BABY, I PROMISE YOU, I WILL NEVER EVER LEAVE YOU AGAIN.
You've got Syafa with you. Take care of her and don't let her down. I love my boyfriend and I know you love Syafa too. Whatever it is, she's yours now. Stay strong. I'll always love you, bestfriend. (:
It is especially important for you to be careful about your stomach and food today, Leo. There is a caution here about eating things you have not eaten before, or eating in restaurants in general. Try to stick with what you make at home, and make sure of the quality before you bite down. This is the kind of energy that can turn a very pleasant time into a difficult one. Your body is very sensitive: try to avoid anything you're not used to, or anything that you are, but haven't been aware of your difficulty with it. This would not be a day to go for the exotic.
This one here, is my Daily Horoscope.
Today there is a sense of novelty or newness in the air for Leo. If you are attached, this may come across an opportunity to take things to the next level, or to try something new with your partner that you've never done before. The single Leo can expect to run into somone new that creates more than a few sparks flying, and a heightened sense of attractiveness will take precedence today. Your eyes are much more open than usual today, and so pay attention to small signals that may be sent your way. Good things do come in small packages, especially on days like today. And this one here, is my Love Horoscope. Hahaha. Somewhat true. Not bad, not bad.
Headed to Simei after school. Owe baby a kiss and he owe me a hug! Yeah. Haha. Nothing much today, just that I have been opening my eyes wide for I don't know what reason. Sister & I, doing fine. Thanks Azira & Shasha. (:
There'll be Captain's Ball match in school on Friday. I'm losing my touch on balls. Haha. I suddenly suck at catching balls. That pissed me off! Tsk.
Tomorrow, going to Net to buy sister her desired clothes then head to Simei again to buy my stuffs. That's all. I have nothing to say. Today is rather mundane.
Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
Life is too short
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
