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Written on Saturday, June 20, 2009 @ 3:08 PM
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Al-FatehaMurni Melati Bte Abdullah August 28 1993 - June 20 2009
I am so sad. I feel so bad. I feel so guilty. I guess it's too late for me to apologise. She's gone for good. Well, Allah wants her back in His arms. He doesn't want her to face so much problems. I am really sad for her. She's a strong girl though. She still stand up for herself when people look down on her. I'll always remember you. Rest in peace, dearest friend. We all love you.
I am sorry I wasn't the good friend you want me to be. I am sorry I acted rudely towards you despite your health. I am sorry I couldn't give you the listening ear when you were feeling the pain deep inside you.
Goodbye my dear friend, Murni Melati Bte Abdullah. Labels: this is for u
Written on Tuesday, November 25, 2008 @ 12:00 AM
Firstly,
R.I.P
Ah Boi
My bestfriend's/sister's life is in danger. I feel so sorry for her. So so sorry. Even though, we knew each other for just a couple of months, I already count her as someone who plays a role in my life. The very important part. She's one of my family now.
Macam mana buruk pun, dialah kawan yang terpaling rapat.
At such a young age, she already have to take care of her family. Especially her mum & siblings. & I really salute her for being such a strong & brave kid for standing up for her own family even after what one of her family members did. The most grave mistake. She dares to put herself at risk to someone very daring & violent. Just to protect her family.
Now, I got a message for you.
Babe, I know how you feel. Even though you said that you know what your doing, you'd still hurt your family. Why? Because they can't bear to see you get hurt like that. I'm sure he won't want to see you get hurt too, right? Your sisters need you by their side, your brother too. Your mum need your support. If something baaaaad happens, what will they feel? How can they move on?
I wish I could help. But I haven't got that much ______ to cover up. & I know my mum doesn't too. We'd love to help. But we can do nothing much, but just stand by your side. If anything happens, babe. I am just a phonecall away. Okay? If you need support, I'll be there to support you. Just to let you know, we won't want anything to happen to you. So take care of yourself. Yeah? Love you.Labels: this is for u
Written on Saturday, November 1, 2008 @ 9:37 AM
 Afiqah & Asha'ari Happy 8th months maaaaaan. Hope both of you can stay strong. & please, kak fee. i know how you feel. but dont just jump to conclusions. ni smer case "hate that i love you" jee. da memang often sgt we see this in relationships kan? so yeah man! semoga bahagieee ;D love you two. Labels: this is for u
Written on Wednesday, October 29, 2008 @ 7:10 PM
Who the hell is he? I need to know. Must know. He is .. good? I wanna know him, please laaa. Please. Reveal yourself. I am figuring you out like hell.Labels: this is for u
Written on Wednesday, August 27, 2008 @ 11:57 AM
First Of All, I'd like to wish Fahmi a Happy Birthday.
Whatever it is, aku sayang kau as a friend ok?
Secondly, I'd like to wish Mell a Happy Birthday.
& to Nazrah & Mat, Happy 3rd Monthsary.
Last long you two. Be a sweet couple.
I wanted to put their pictures. But, i can't seem to find Fahmi's. So, i think i should be fair. hhes. Today, went to school as per normal. hugged people. one day seems like one year to me. heeeh. i have set a goal for each week.
This Week:
[ ] To recover fully.
[ ] To finish up revising my weak Science chapters.
[ ] To at least finish revising 1/4 chapters of 2A Maths Textbook.
[ ] To make sure nothing goes wrong on Friday.
[ ] To help Khairiya & Sister bake cookies or maybe chocolates (♥) for our respective teachers.
[ ] To confront people who have been acting like a big bully when deep inside they are a timid little mouse. & I will. Trust me. I plan stuffs.
Next Week:
[ ] Hope not to break my fast during fasting season. Hope only [;
[ ] To win Hakeem! :DDD
[ ] To make sure i have done everything I wanted to do.
[ ] To update my dead blog! HAHA.
OK, that's it i guess.
& Mell, really. If u dont wanna invite me or fee or whoever u think have been acting like a BITCH towards u, just say it. rather than lying so plainly. because i don't tolerate dishonesty. & perhaps, if u have told me earlier or confronted any of us that our attitude sucked, maybe it wouldn't have turned out this way. or maybe, just maybe, ur just jealous that people aint close to u. i don't wanna fight. i am just saying it truthfully. because i believe that honesty is the best solution to this. if u keep on lying, it will just make it worst. & one more thing, if u have a problem with anyone. ONLY YOU. i think its best if u settle it using ur OWN mouth. rather than asking people to back u up. I am being straight forward. this is the best i can do. To make u realise that in this world there is no 'I' but 'We'. if u can't take comments or suggestions or opinions, then i think its too bad. even though we don't live on people's expectations, if ur attitude really sucked, maybe those suggestions given would help. i have respected u as a senior even though u stayed back. but if ur gonna act this way, im sorry but i lose my respect towards u. that's it. i've said it all. its up to you to take it or not. it's ur life not mine. we'll see who will have the last laugh. & reminder, if u ever happened to get fed-up with this short speech & feel like talking or confronting me, feel free to talk things out. i don't care if u got back-ups cause i ain't scared of no human-being.Labels: this is for u
Written on Thursday, March 13, 2008 @ 4:54 PM
yaa . i think theres nothing left to say . all my answers have been said by kakak . thanks ehh . ur the best . & tell ur friends, i appreciate their help . ima flirt . i flirt with guys . when they didn't even know im tryna' tell them to stop disturbing me . i don't run to guys . they are just despos . i flirt with ur abangs . who ? yanti's abang ? not even once . i flirt with their matair . who ? tell them to talk to me . & i'll show the meaning of FLIRT . u want flirty me ? fine with me . ask them to bring all the guys that they think i have flirt with before . i'll tell them what i've done . what i've help . im trying to save their fcuking relationship . im trying to save them from being hurt . if this person ur referring to is ashiqin .. yaa . i flirt with the guys she like . i flirt with them by talking . whoa . sucha flirt seyy illa . just by talking tau .
illa vogue uh . bobal tros orang terpikat . tak jealous ke ? dher nak pki tudong lagyyk . sape ehh nak replace illa ? confirm shiok . illa illa . rabak .
oh . meet up eh ? kite bobal care baik . Labels: this is for u
10:35 AM
well, i find it easier to reply her here . so, READ .
noura .. first of all . ur not a burden . seriously . it just annoys people when u start saying all those stuff . da mcm terrorists tau tak ? u may be wondering why u get answers like these . well, u've got the answer . why ask ? its just that . u look at people more than u look at urself . sometimes i think that ur teaching others but not urself . i know, u'll deny . but think . u think they're siding u .. they as in our friends . they just dont wanna hurt u .
the reason why i became so mean is because .. if im not gonna be straight forward then, who else ? our friends aint that straight forward dont u think ? i became mean because of them .. well, yes . i've been complaining about u to them A LOT . they say .. confront her laa confront her . fyi, i have tried that a lot of times . takkan pasal lelaki kau nak attitude ni macam ? i dont wanna say what they say about u . it'll just hurt u . all i know is that, most of them think the same way i think about u .
well yeah, as a friend, u said u've been patient . but, HELL NO . ur not being patient . are u tryna' say that we will be friends only till sec 5 ? fine, u want it . u'll get it . all i wanna say now is that, treasure and bear this moment a lot . because ur gonna get the worst of me sooner or later .
i will show u all my colours if u want . this is just the beggining . but im not tryna say im bad . its just u dont know me well enough . sometimes i think adie knows me better . now, why did i say ur not patient enough ? u said .. SHE DOESN'T SEEM TO REALISE . im sorry, but fuck . u don't know how many sleepless nights i have went through just to be like how we were last time . u dont know . no one knows . so, what the fcuking shit are u tryna say ? by u saying she doesn't seem to realise is like u tryna say, " she's not gonna change . " how do u know ? well, im gonna die soon . yeah ? u dont know what ive been doing at home now . im like, anti-guys right now . u dont know a single shit .
well good, u realise it . u realise im tryna avoid u . congrats . u know what ? u are one ms i-know-everything . what can i say ? ugh . but.. do u know why im tryna avoid u ? do u ? if u think its because of sweet talker motha fcukers .. ur hell wrong . it aint because of them . unfortunately, its because of u, girl . u said, u were very dissapointed to hear bad things i said about u ? do u think ima doll ? ive been hearing bad stuffs u said about me too . & guess what ? i couldn't care less cause i thought that was all bullshit & i fcuking trust u . but u .. believing all this shit, u dont even trust me, even though u said u do . i thought u were the best . sigh .. ive been avoiding u since people said u were avoiding me . do u know, ur pressuring me ? do u ? sometimes, i just regret coming to u as a friend . if only i knew this would happen . im sorry girl, ur not my friend . ur no longer my friend .Labels: this is for u
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Written on Saturday, June 20, 2009 @ 3:08 PM
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Al-FatehaMurni Melati Bte Abdullah August 28 1993 - June 20 2009
I am so sad. I feel so bad. I feel so guilty. I guess it's too late for me to apologise. She's gone for good. Well, Allah wants her back in His arms. He doesn't want her to face so much problems. I am really sad for her. She's a strong girl though. She still stand up for herself when people look down on her. I'll always remember you. Rest in peace, dearest friend. We all love you.
I am sorry I wasn't the good friend you want me to be. I am sorry I acted rudely towards you despite your health. I am sorry I couldn't give you the listening ear when you were feeling the pain deep inside you.
Goodbye my dear friend, Murni Melati Bte Abdullah. Labels: this is for u
Written on Tuesday, November 25, 2008 @ 12:00 AM
Firstly,
R.I.P
Ah Boi
My bestfriend's/sister's life is in danger. I feel so sorry for her. So so sorry. Even though, we knew each other for just a couple of months, I already count her as someone who plays a role in my life. The very important part. She's one of my family now.
Macam mana buruk pun, dialah kawan yang terpaling rapat.
At such a young age, she already have to take care of her family. Especially her mum & siblings. & I really salute her for being such a strong & brave kid for standing up for her own family even after what one of her family members did. The most grave mistake. She dares to put herself at risk to someone very daring & violent. Just to protect her family.
Now, I got a message for you.
Babe, I know how you feel. Even though you said that you know what your doing, you'd still hurt your family. Why? Because they can't bear to see you get hurt like that. I'm sure he won't want to see you get hurt too, right? Your sisters need you by their side, your brother too. Your mum need your support. If something baaaaad happens, what will they feel? How can they move on?
I wish I could help. But I haven't got that much ______ to cover up. & I know my mum doesn't too. We'd love to help. But we can do nothing much, but just stand by your side. If anything happens, babe. I am just a phonecall away. Okay? If you need support, I'll be there to support you. Just to let you know, we won't want anything to happen to you. So take care of yourself. Yeah? Love you.Labels: this is for u
Written on Saturday, November 1, 2008 @ 9:37 AM
Afiqah & Asha'ari Happy 8th months maaaaaan. Hope both of you can stay strong. & please, kak fee. i know how you feel. but dont just jump to conclusions. ni smer case "hate that i love you" jee. da memang often sgt we see this in relationships kan? so yeah man! semoga bahagieee ;D love you two. Labels: this is for u
Written on Wednesday, October 29, 2008 @ 7:10 PM
Who the hell is he? I need to know. Must know. He is .. good? I wanna know him, please laaa. Please. Reveal yourself. I am figuring you out like hell.Labels: this is for u
Written on Wednesday, August 27, 2008 @ 11:57 AM
First Of All, I'd like to wish Fahmi a Happy Birthday.
Whatever it is, aku sayang kau as a friend ok?
Secondly, I'd like to wish Mell a Happy Birthday.
& to Nazrah & Mat, Happy 3rd Monthsary.
Last long you two. Be a sweet couple.
I wanted to put their pictures. But, i can't seem to find Fahmi's. So, i think i should be fair. hhes. Today, went to school as per normal. hugged people. one day seems like one year to me. heeeh. i have set a goal for each week.
This Week:
[ ] To recover fully.
[ ] To finish up revising my weak Science chapters.
[ ] To at least finish revising 1/4 chapters of 2A Maths Textbook.
[ ] To make sure nothing goes wrong on Friday.
[ ] To help Khairiya & Sister bake cookies or maybe chocolates (♥) for our respective teachers.
[ ] To confront people who have been acting like a big bully when deep inside they are a timid little mouse. & I will. Trust me. I plan stuffs.
Next Week:
[ ] Hope not to break my fast during fasting season. Hope only [;
[ ] To win Hakeem! :DDD
[ ] To make sure i have done everything I wanted to do.
[ ] To update my dead blog! HAHA.
OK, that's it i guess.
& Mell, really. If u dont wanna invite me or fee or whoever u think have been acting like a BITCH towards u, just say it. rather than lying so plainly. because i don't tolerate dishonesty. & perhaps, if u have told me earlier or confronted any of us that our attitude sucked, maybe it wouldn't have turned out this way. or maybe, just maybe, ur just jealous that people aint close to u. i don't wanna fight. i am just saying it truthfully. because i believe that honesty is the best solution to this. if u keep on lying, it will just make it worst. & one more thing, if u have a problem with anyone. ONLY YOU. i think its best if u settle it using ur OWN mouth. rather than asking people to back u up. I am being straight forward. this is the best i can do. To make u realise that in this world there is no 'I' but 'We'. if u can't take comments or suggestions or opinions, then i think its too bad. even though we don't live on people's expectations, if ur attitude really sucked, maybe those suggestions given would help. i have respected u as a senior even though u stayed back. but if ur gonna act this way, im sorry but i lose my respect towards u. that's it. i've said it all. its up to you to take it or not. it's ur life not mine. we'll see who will have the last laugh. & reminder, if u ever happened to get fed-up with this short speech & feel like talking or confronting me, feel free to talk things out. i don't care if u got back-ups cause i ain't scared of no human-being.Labels: this is for u
Written on Thursday, March 13, 2008 @ 4:54 PM
yaa . i think theres nothing left to say . all my answers have been said by kakak . thanks ehh . ur the best . & tell ur friends, i appreciate their help . ima flirt . i flirt with guys . when they didn't even know im tryna' tell them to stop disturbing me . i don't run to guys . they are just despos . i flirt with ur abangs . who ? yanti's abang ? not even once . i flirt with their matair . who ? tell them to talk to me . & i'll show the meaning of FLIRT . u want flirty me ? fine with me . ask them to bring all the guys that they think i have flirt with before . i'll tell them what i've done . what i've help . im trying to save their fcuking relationship . im trying to save them from being hurt . if this person ur referring to is ashiqin .. yaa . i flirt with the guys she like . i flirt with them by talking . whoa . sucha flirt seyy illa . just by talking tau .
illa vogue uh . bobal tros orang terpikat . tak jealous ke ? dher nak pki tudong lagyyk . sape ehh nak replace illa ? confirm shiok . illa illa . rabak .
oh . meet up eh ? kite bobal care baik . Labels: this is for u
10:35 AM
well, i find it easier to reply her here . so, READ .
noura .. first of all . ur not a burden . seriously . it just annoys people when u start saying all those stuff . da mcm terrorists tau tak ? u may be wondering why u get answers like these . well, u've got the answer . why ask ? its just that . u look at people more than u look at urself . sometimes i think that ur teaching others but not urself . i know, u'll deny . but think . u think they're siding u .. they as in our friends . they just dont wanna hurt u .
the reason why i became so mean is because .. if im not gonna be straight forward then, who else ? our friends aint that straight forward dont u think ? i became mean because of them .. well, yes . i've been complaining about u to them A LOT . they say .. confront her laa confront her . fyi, i have tried that a lot of times . takkan pasal lelaki kau nak attitude ni macam ? i dont wanna say what they say about u . it'll just hurt u . all i know is that, most of them think the same way i think about u .
well yeah, as a friend, u said u've been patient . but, HELL NO . ur not being patient . are u tryna' say that we will be friends only till sec 5 ? fine, u want it . u'll get it . all i wanna say now is that, treasure and bear this moment a lot . because ur gonna get the worst of me sooner or later .
i will show u all my colours if u want . this is just the beggining . but im not tryna say im bad . its just u dont know me well enough . sometimes i think adie knows me better . now, why did i say ur not patient enough ? u said .. SHE DOESN'T SEEM TO REALISE . im sorry, but fuck . u don't know how many sleepless nights i have went through just to be like how we were last time . u dont know . no one knows . so, what the fcuking shit are u tryna say ? by u saying she doesn't seem to realise is like u tryna say, " she's not gonna change . " how do u know ? well, im gonna die soon . yeah ? u dont know what ive been doing at home now . im like, anti-guys right now . u dont know a single shit .
well good, u realise it . u realise im tryna avoid u . congrats . u know what ? u are one ms i-know-everything . what can i say ? ugh . but.. do u know why im tryna avoid u ? do u ? if u think its because of sweet talker motha fcukers .. ur hell wrong . it aint because of them . unfortunately, its because of u, girl . u said, u were very dissapointed to hear bad things i said about u ? do u think ima doll ? ive been hearing bad stuffs u said about me too . & guess what ? i couldn't care less cause i thought that was all bullshit & i fcuking trust u . but u .. believing all this shit, u dont even trust me, even though u said u do . i thought u were the best . sigh .. ive been avoiding u since people said u were avoiding me . do u know, ur pressuring me ? do u ? sometimes, i just regret coming to u as a friend . if only i knew this would happen . im sorry girl, ur not my friend . ur no longer my friend .Labels: this is for u
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Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
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http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
i promise.
I feel like our world's been infected.
Quick Update ♥
It was almost perfect ):
You still are. And I still am.
Let's just hope he'd read this.
Yes, that's true.
I am very exhausted
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