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unexpectedly unexpected
Written on Saturday, November 7, 2009 @ 10:56 PM

Suddenly, I feel like I'm in the past.
God, I need help. I mean, Allah.

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I love you.
Written on Sunday, June 21, 2009 @ 10:06 AM

To live in hearts we leave behind
Is not to die.

Ugh. I am still thinking of it! The memories are playing in my head like films. Honestly, I miss her. I can't accept the fact that she left us. She's gone to the other side of the world; Heaven. When I think of the days I talked about her behind her back, it makes me feel guilty. And that made me cry. Not so bad though. I cried bad enough yesterday as soon as I saw the corpse.

Ok, I'm not gonna think about it. Ok? Good.

The Hi Tea at Royal Plaza Hotel, Carousel, the other day was off the hook! I couldn't stop myself from gaining weight. Haha. I ate plates of food. And there was a chocolate fountain, the most favourite one. Haha. I want more of it. Hehs. Happy 4th Birthday Nurin 'Aliyah. Although you have been such an ass lately, I love you. May you grow up to be a very intelligent girl. Pictures will be updated in multiply soon. And picture of 'Aliyah will be posted soon (:

Did I mention; baby broke his nail while playing his guitar. Hahahah!

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What to doo..
Written on Friday, February 27, 2009 @ 3:46 PM

Ate 4 pints of Ben & Jerry's ice cream flavored, CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE DOUGH, Strawberry Cheesecake, Chocolate Fudge Brownie & New York Super Fudge Chunk. Sister's treat. Thanks babe. Like a lot. Hahahah. Like, at last i got what i have been craving for all these while. Heheh.

Proceeded to chocolates after feasting on the ice-creams. Hmm.. let's see. Bounty, Toffifee, Chunkie, Flakes, Cadbury Peppermint, Dream, Hanuta, Wafer Creams. And some snacks. Cool eh? Auntie's treat.

But before all these, we ate Popeyes Chicken & Biscuits. Hahaha. The fries, the mashed potatoes, the chicken.. I feel like I'm in heaven I tell ya.

We bought all these at Terminal 3. Heheh. On that day itself.

Ok, enough. Let's be random now..




i miss sharifah noura aljunied.
also known as my bestfriend. or maybe my ex-bestfriend.

random feelings.. hmm.
i miss the moments we spend together.
damn, i sound like a lesbian. haha.
whatever. all the lame jokes, the laughs. i missed all that.

but, what to do. we're not meant to be long-lasting bestfriends.
maybe, its my fault. for always misunderstanding her.

when people ask me, "mane noura? dulu, kau nan dher mcm isi & kuku."
that sentence, made me think of our great memories.
then, i said, "tah. i don't know." trying to make myself not care about what they said.
then, they would purposely say, "setiap ade kau mesti ade dher. dulu uh. skg, da tk eh?"
& i will pretend i didn't hear anything.

well, only god knows how i felt.
babe, i miss you to the core man. haha?
(:

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I LOVE BABY B
Written on Saturday, February 14, 2009 @ 1:23 PM

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY BABY B!
i love love love love looovvveee you bacheyn.

I gotta admit, i feel so guilty. I mean, i scolded u for no reason. Just because u said u will try ur best to come & i said forget it. Sorry. I really didn't expect u to give me a surprise tomorrow. Love ya. Sorrryyyy!

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I can't let this happen anymore
Written on Friday, November 14, 2008 @ 5:47 AM

Song of the time: Hot N Cold/If I were a boy/No Substitute Love
Time check: 4:51 am

Damn, I can't sleep. Well, weird thing was, I don't even know if I was sleeping or not. Awkward babe. I 'woke' up from my sleep when sister was back from her toilet trip. & I found tears in my eyes. I wake up easily these few days & the most irritating part is, I always wake up around 4 am! Grr. Then, I'll get sleepy around 6 am & decide to sleep again. Tsk. & I will find myself waking up late. Pathetic.

Early this night, around 12 am or so, my ex called up. Well, he always have a reason when he call me, especially after months of not calling. So, I suspected he just broke up with his girlfriend ( I know who but I think I won't reveal their names ). Here's how it goes.

Him: Hello
Me: Hello
.. chatted nonsense & I sang because I was super bored. I'll skip the not important parts, aye?

Few moments later, before we hung up the phone. He said..
Him: You, (girlfriend's name) give up on me.
Me: Oh, why?
Him: Idk why, but I count it as a break up.

& my mind was like, BINGO! It's always like that. After month(s) of dumping. Tsk.

Me: Oh ok.
Him: You got any girl friends?
Me: No, I think all of them is unavailable. They're not interested.
Him: Just give me their number, I'll handle from there.
Me: Sorry, they ain't interested. Especially with guys by the name (his name).
Him: Nevermind. I'll tell them my name is Bobo.

I was thinking.. it's not funny, okay! -.-

Me: Oh, did I forget to tell you? They're not interested by the name Bobo, too. Aww.
Him: Ya right. -.-
Me: Really. Hmm.. I thought you've got tons of girls ready by your side? 1 girl go, 10 girls come. & I thought you got 3-4 girls interested in you?
Him: I don't wanna go for girls who lives in Bedok. I prefer girls living in Pasir Ris or Tampines.
Me: Oh, too bad then. Most of them live in Bedok & Pasir Ris, mind you, Atiqa won't be interested in you.
Him: Who said about Atiqa?
Me: You said girls living in Pasir Ris -.-
Him: Tampines?
Me: They're all attached, sorry.
Him: All of them living in Tampines attached?
Me: Uhhuh.
Him: Then you?

& my mind goes. BOOM! I know you'd ask that.

Me: I'm single. *Proud*
Him: Oh, can uh.
Me: You think funny uh?
Him: Whats so funny?
Me: *silence* Eh, I thought your cousin wants to use the phone?
Him: Yaaa.
Me: Give him use the phone laaa. Bye.
Him: Kay bye.
Me: Kay *almost hung up when..*
Him: Oi!
Me: What!?
Him: Don't change the subject.
Me: Whose changing? Your cousin wants to use the phone. Let him.
Him: I was asking, then you?
Me: *silence* Urm, u eh. U is an alphabet.

Then he said he don't like girls like me. & I was like, okay fine. I couldn't care less & we hung up. Most of it was spoken in Malay. & I added abit of words in my sentences. Geeee.

Hey ex, after all these days or month(s) you left me. You think I don't feel angry about that? You think I am just gonna forget just like that? You don't know how crazy I went when you chose her! Do you? After all those pathetic counsellings from sister, do you know how much I lost? I would have gone for other guys. But thank you, for making me feel they're all the same.

I was always the one who gave in when we fought. Always me. Never you. Yeah, my fault entirely. You know how stupid I felt to be fooled/cheated repeatedly for almost a year!? I'll arrange in point forms & you, you see how true it is.
  • Break up with me.
  • Find other girls.
  • Found other girls.
  • Start to love them.
  • Start to 'love' me back.
  • Broke up with them.
  • Patched up with me.
  • Start to love them back.
For god's sake, it have been going on repeatedly & I can't let myself be cheated! It's like, am I your substitute lover or what!? Oh, a song titled No Substitute Love would be great to convey my message to you.

& guess what? A mixture of Hot N Cold & If I were a boy would suit you perfectly! You never cared about my feelings. You know how stupid I felt to be called a fool? Why? Because I kept on trusting you even after what you ever did to me. Do you know how effed up I was to know that you actually accused me of breaking you bloody heart when you did almost the same thing to me a few times? I have always loved you better than the rest. I used to be proud to have a boyfriend like you. But never did I realise I was fooled. Why? Because in my bloody eyes, you were always the good guy. The one who love me for who I am, not what I am. & then, I started to wonder, is it even true?

I always wanted you to be happy. Not that I am afraid I would break the girl's heart ( the girl your choosing ). I know you love her, you don't need to pretend you love me. You don't need to act confuse. Lambat laun, u pilih dher jgak kan? My decisions to choose who would be your lover/companion/soulmate don't count. You make yours.

Do you know the feeling when a girl or guy who made an impact in your life left you? Left you just like that. Like a girl who loves her doll but when she found something nicer, she just threw it away? I felt that way.

History may repeat. & I don't want myself to get hurt anymore. Or even break your heart. But I'll just let you know, we can never be more than friends after what happened. Prove to me you're never the same like you used to be. Prove to me your not the type of guys who chase girls, then break their heart. & the way I acted earlier, I was acting up so you would hang up the phone & then let me cry my eyes out. I am sorry if you ever think I was breaking your heart. But you never realised that I had to suffer so much, just by losing you.

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Written on Wednesday, October 1, 2008 @ 12:00 AM

HELLO! yay yay.

I didn't post for the past few days due to the examinations.
It's not done yet. But for hari raya's sake, to all muslims:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.
JIKA ADA SALAH SILAP, HARAP DIMAAFKAN.
COLLECT DUIT RAYE BYKBYK OKEHH!

& ONE MORE THING, JGN MKN BYK SGT.
NNTI FATFAT! haha. LOVE YOU.


special message:



To Nur Afiqah & Muhammad Asha'ari.
Happy celebrating your 7th months together.
Koraaaang paling yang ter-gerek :DDD
Trust each other no matter what others say, okehh!

Last long. Very very long.
Hingga ke jinjang pelamin.
Or even better...
Hingga ke anak cucu ;D

Till death do both of you apart.
Even better.. even death can't do you apart.
Love you both. Abang & kakak. (:

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Written on Wednesday, April 16, 2008 @ 5:37 PM

Youre in all my thoughts
And in my dreams at night
I can feel your love for me
Everytime you hold me tight



You make me feel so safe
and I love you wiht all my heart
I couldnt imagine a single day without you
A day that were apart



We have something special
Something that makes my heart melt
Everything feels so different this time
Like something Ive never felt



I only wanna be with you
For some reason you think I dont
You think that Ill cheat on you
I promise, I wont



Youre everything Ive ever wanted
Id be stupid to let you go
I love you so much baby
I just thought you should know.



i love you ♥

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Written on Tuesday, April 15, 2008 @ 1:10 PM

our song is our song
no one else could have it
my heart is my soul
cause if theres no you, theres no meaning to it
it was just another heartbreak
my heart was drained with tears
to see you with a new girl
the one, perhaps more beautiful
you asked me to cling to a new one
but no, i didn't want to
you asked me for the reason
its because i love you. true.
i waited long enough
just to be with you
and now im lucky
to get back to you
slept two, three in the morning
talking to you all alone
afraid of being caught
so i whispered on the phone
months has gone by
lucky to still be with you
hoping our love would never end
cause im hopelessly in love with you
i love you ♥

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