Here I am, drinking coke. Tired of life. My depressing life. No mercy given. My whole body's aching. My heart's broken. My dreams crushed. My hopes dropped. My life; confusion.
Lost a sister & a boyfriend.
I made a promise to myself; never talk to anyone who hurts me so bad. And I won't accept your apology anymore. Because when it happens again, you'd use you as a GOOD example. I don't wanna hear that no more. Ex-boyfriend's treating me like a friend. Bad enough? Hah. Brother's a total jerk. Friends; sometimes good, sometimes bad. Easy said, I'm losing everyone bit by bit.
Maybe what she said was right. Egoness. But I don't care. I may be full of ego, but I know I'm right. When I'm wrong, I say sorry. When I'm not? Forget it.
Mouth's bleeding profusely since yesterday night. Should be getting better by now. I don't know. Hmm.. Cannot eat too much because apparently someone kicked me in the stomach. Each time I eat, I'd puke. So, I think it's good enough I still get to drink. Friend's said I look sad the whole day.
Guess what? Cried in school for I'm not sure how many times. Nobody can cheer me up. Mark my words; NOBODY. I wish, I just wish I could take the easy way out. If only comitting a suicide wasn't a sin, I wouldn't hesitate to do that. I swear.
Here I am, drinking coke. Tired of life. My depressing life. No mercy given. My whole body's aching. My heart's broken. My dreams crushed. My hopes dropped. My life; confusion.
Lost a sister & a boyfriend.
I made a promise to myself; never talk to anyone who hurts me so bad. And I won't accept your apology anymore. Because when it happens again, you'd use you as a GOOD example. I don't wanna hear that no more. Ex-boyfriend's treating me like a friend. Bad enough? Hah. Brother's a total jerk. Friends; sometimes good, sometimes bad. Easy said, I'm losing everyone bit by bit.
Maybe what she said was right. Egoness. But I don't care. I may be full of ego, but I know I'm right. When I'm wrong, I say sorry. When I'm not? Forget it.
Mouth's bleeding profusely since yesterday night. Should be getting better by now. I don't know. Hmm.. Cannot eat too much because apparently someone kicked me in the stomach. Each time I eat, I'd puke. So, I think it's good enough I still get to drink. Friend's said I look sad the whole day.
Guess what? Cried in school for I'm not sure how many times. Nobody can cheer me up. Mark my words; NOBODY. I wish, I just wish I could take the easy way out. If only comitting a suicide wasn't a sin, I wouldn't hesitate to do that. I swear.
Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
