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Written on Wednesday, April 29, 2009 @ 6:49 PM
Now, you people tell me. How the hell am I suppose to live in peace when each time I feel happy some idiot will come and destroy it.
School's a junk. And it's getting junk-er. Desperate boys, bitchy girls, stupid rumors. I really can't live with it. Why am I letting all these conquer my life?! Then soon, I will find out the person I trusted all these while will either take advantage of me or stab me from the back. Why must it be that way?
Because of them, I lose my friend's trust. Because of him, I am close to insanity. Because of her, my life is almost ruined.
I can't stand it anymore, really. Why am I so blind? Why can't I see that earlier? Why do I take what they say as tryna make me and my friend(s) fall apart?
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I hate you, yes I do. Aren't you happy to know that? Aren't you relieved? Don't you feel good about it? Isn't this what you've been waiting for? To get rid of me. You've been planning to ditch me, haven't you? Well, that's too bad. Cause I am gonna do that now.
You have totally betrayed my trust.
You said you'd be by my side, making me strong like always. Where is it? You don't call, you don't text, you don't even care. All I ever wanted from you was to just be honest. Is it so hard for you to tell me the truth? For once in your life, make me happy at least? Thanks a lot darling. You made me realise that your just the replica of my ex.
One more thing, stop forcing yourself to do something you don't like. Stop pretending. You can't do that? Then, learn.
This is so sad, I don't wanna be enemies with you. But I really can't take it any longer. I swear.
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As for you babe, thanks for 'being there' when I really needed it. Thanks for trusting me and most importantly, thanks for always giving a 'listening ear'. I learnt what you learnt too. From now onwards, I won' trust anyone. Including you. Since you feel I betrayed and disappoint you, let me tell you something. You did it twice as painful to me. Don't go, "huh?" or "wtf?" or "fuck you" or "chibai" because I know every single thing you did to me behind my back. It's not only from them I heard it from, I heard it from everyone. And that's a plus painful for me.
You really did put up a good show, superstar. You made me almost believe it wasn't an act. Keep it up. Labels: bitch
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Written on Wednesday, April 29, 2009 @ 6:49 PM
Now, you people tell me. How the hell am I suppose to live in peace when each time I feel happy some idiot will come and destroy it.
School's a junk. And it's getting junk-er. Desperate boys, bitchy girls, stupid rumors. I really can't live with it. Why am I letting all these conquer my life?! Then soon, I will find out the person I trusted all these while will either take advantage of me or stab me from the back. Why must it be that way?
Because of them, I lose my friend's trust. Because of him, I am close to insanity. Because of her, my life is almost ruined.
I can't stand it anymore, really. Why am I so blind? Why can't I see that earlier? Why do I take what they say as tryna make me and my friend(s) fall apart?
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I hate you, yes I do. Aren't you happy to know that? Aren't you relieved? Don't you feel good about it? Isn't this what you've been waiting for? To get rid of me. You've been planning to ditch me, haven't you? Well, that's too bad. Cause I am gonna do that now.
You have totally betrayed my trust.
You said you'd be by my side, making me strong like always. Where is it? You don't call, you don't text, you don't even care. All I ever wanted from you was to just be honest. Is it so hard for you to tell me the truth? For once in your life, make me happy at least? Thanks a lot darling. You made me realise that your just the replica of my ex.
One more thing, stop forcing yourself to do something you don't like. Stop pretending. You can't do that? Then, learn.
This is so sad, I don't wanna be enemies with you. But I really can't take it any longer. I swear.
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As for you babe, thanks for 'being there' when I really needed it. Thanks for trusting me and most importantly, thanks for always giving a 'listening ear'. I learnt what you learnt too. From now onwards, I won' trust anyone. Including you. Since you feel I betrayed and disappoint you, let me tell you something. You did it twice as painful to me. Don't go, "huh?" or "wtf?" or "fuck you" or "chibai" because I know every single thing you did to me behind my back. It's not only from them I heard it from, I heard it from everyone. And that's a plus painful for me.
You really did put up a good show, superstar. You made me almost believe it wasn't an act. Keep it up. Labels: bitch
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Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
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