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From the bottom of my heart
Written on Wednesday, April 22, 2009 @ 9:37 AM

Okay, I give up.



Tell me if time should make a change, then why do I feel the same?
Its the mind that tells you've had enough; but the heart keeps saying 'dont give up'.

For the first time, in my 14 years of living, I felt this way. I am not a despo, for sure. Because I don't force you to love me. I miss the old you, baby. You've changed a lot. I don't care if your nice, kind, bad, ugly, hot, uncool, cool, disgusting or irritating. I love you just the way you are. I feel like as though I fell in love with a different guy last time.

You said me & you don't fit because you feel I deserved someone better. Why? Is it because you think your so bad or because you don't love or like me? Then, you said you feel useless. What the hell for? Your not, dearest. If you are, I wouldn't have fell in love with you in the first place. Never.

Tell me the truth, what's your main reason?

Since you really wanna know what's the reason why I fell in love with you, I'll tell you that now.

I first texted you as a friend. No more. Then, you told me you broke up with your ex. So, I said I was sorry to hear that. Then suddenly, you labelled me honey, dear, baby and sweetheart. I was fine with that. I thought, why were you labelling me?

And I asked you. I asked you, who else did you label the above-mentioned. And you said, only me. At that moment, I was speechless. So, from 19 January 2009, we contacted each other. Am I right?

Then one day, I asked you, who were you contacting with. You replied; me. That time, I started liking you. I admit. Soon, my parents found out. Surprisingly, they were fine about it. Surprisingly. Until today, right now, they don't mind me contacting you. Because they trusted you. Nevermind. Let's not talk about that.

What shocked me was when some people said you were contacting with another girl while you contacted me. I chose to believe you, instead. I ignored. Then, I heard people saying that you hated me and stuffs. That was when I felt something fishy going on.

Then, someone told me you still liked me. At that moment, I felt confused. Are you playing with my heart? Still, I trusted you.

Now, you said that to me. The message you sent was so similar to my previous ex's message. SO similar. Then I thought, must I always get this in the end of every relationship I had? I gave up. I didn't text you. So, from now onwards, I want you to be honest. I won't be so nice to anyone else from now on. I feel useless now.

But nevermind, life goes on. Like what I used to tell my dear friend. Thanks a lot for entertaining me yesterday night. Your the best.

For you, I won't force you to love me or like me. From the bottom of your heart, you tell me the truth. And I will accept it. Thank you for taking your time to read sucha long post. And thank you for all your concern towards me. I absolutely treasured every bit of that. Every bit.
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