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Written on Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 9:34 PM
And you guys were saying we were keeping things away from you. So what did we miss? Ok wait, I know this. A lot. You claimed she was the one who was there for you. Obviously. Ok fine, maybe you weren't conscious about this but it's okay, I'm telling you what happened now. Each time we asked you what's going on when you pull the long face, you'd just keep quiet or shake your head. So was it OUR fault? I don't think so.
Ok so yeah, we said you were being the puppet. Turns out right, right? Well, you wanted us to be straightforward right? So no harm telling you the truth. You wanna know what we ever talked about you? THAT'S ALL. If you freaking think you wanna fuck us (the rest) then suits yourself. Cause I'm never fucking you back because you're my friend. You know, I'm really really disappointed in you. A 4 year friendship, just going down the drain. And we clearly know it wasn't our faults. Maybe to you it was. But whatever since you couldn't care less about us, fuckers.
And you. You know who you. I'm keeping you low because I have respect for you. And you should have the same thing for me. I don't care if you're so fly or whatever they call it. I don't care if you're the eye candy to every guy. But let me tell you one thing I care, your attitude. And it sucks. Maybe you said you were tryna bring something good out of a person by being sarcastic. Well, that's pure crap. Nobody does that. That's the stupidest thing I have ever heard in my 15 years of living. Now let me ask you, you like it when we do it to you? I believe not. And really, do you think when the two animals were being sarcastic to you, they cared for you? Definitely not. So don't use that as a reason.
If you say Shafiqa was influenced by someone because she wasn't her well, I'm sorry but you're certainly not her true friend. She has been feeling that way since forever just that we freaking cared so much about how you'd feel that we decided to zip it. You once said that I didn't stand up for you when they talked bad about you. Eh, what do you know? You weren't there to hear or witness anything! So can I say I'm standing for my rights now? Oh yes I can.
You don't have a friend's best interest at heart. You didn't know what I feel about you being close to ____. And you didn't notice me throwing hints that I didn't like you making friends with _____. I am disappointed in you too. You fucking used me. And sorry that word HAD to come out. Many times, I tried to put you first before me because I really cared. It was such a pity seeing you being disgraced by those animals. But again, you were the one who didn't stand up for me. So what if you were sad? So what if you were angry? If I can, you can. Still, you sat there with them and talked about how stupid I was to trust those animals. What would I feel? Ever thought of that? I just felt that you were going to treasure me and be my good friend. But you proved me wrong. YOU proved me wrong.
You are afraid. Yes, you are. You are afraid to leave us. You're not gonna miss us later on or have a hard time trying to forget the memories we all shared. You're just freaking afraid to go solo. Put your ego aside and tell us the truth. There was no need to say that you could go solo in school. Really. And you said that they could just take you back in. What the fuck are you tryna say? So what now? Are you using us? It was like telling us that you were afraid to go solo that was why you chose to get close with us! And now, when we're having a problem, you said they could accept you back. Explain babe.
You know, if I were to go on, this won't stop. I'm just gonna stop talking about you. And up to you if you wanna accept this or not. But let me remind you. You chose to leave, so be it. Don't try to be all goody two shoes so that people will sympathise you. It doesn't work anymore. You get what you say. Peace.
Now, I'm not saying that nothing is my fault and I have never backstabbed any of you. I admit I did. And I'm sorry.
Effah & Hidayah: I just hated the fact that you guys look so snobbish and bratty. And you looked as if you didn't like us being around you. But heck, that was the past. We're fine now, aren't we?
Noura: I didn't really talk about you. In fact, I already told you what I talked about you. Another thing is, I know you're up to the "I only want a boyfriend at 18" but you know, sometimes, love comes and you just can't stop it. So yeah. That's about it.
Nazrah: I guess you know what I'm gonna say. Maybe you should just chill out and not take anything seriously. And really, you should try understanding what a person would feel. I mean, you did but try harder babe. And your tone, keep it soft and steady. Don't be too harsh *winks* I love you.
Shafiqa: Oh this one. This one I hate most. Hehe, babe. As far as I could remember, I didn't talk about you. (: I love you too and please don't ever forget to love me back, twinnie. *kiss*
Yanti & Fateha: HAHA! How can I talk about them? They're so quiet when it comes to these things. Chill babes, I'm totally fine with you guys. Hee.
Adilah: Speechless babe. You never changed. Keep up the show. 3 words definitely; I hate you.
So I guess, good things never last aye? Too much of everything can make you sick, the saying goes. I guess I'm sick now. Peace - again.
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Written on Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 9:34 PM
And you guys were saying we were keeping things away from you. So what did we miss? Ok wait, I know this. A lot. You claimed she was the one who was there for you. Obviously. Ok fine, maybe you weren't conscious about this but it's okay, I'm telling you what happened now. Each time we asked you what's going on when you pull the long face, you'd just keep quiet or shake your head. So was it OUR fault? I don't think so.
Ok so yeah, we said you were being the puppet. Turns out right, right? Well, you wanted us to be straightforward right? So no harm telling you the truth. You wanna know what we ever talked about you? THAT'S ALL. If you freaking think you wanna fuck us (the rest) then suits yourself. Cause I'm never fucking you back because you're my friend. You know, I'm really really disappointed in you. A 4 year friendship, just going down the drain. And we clearly know it wasn't our faults. Maybe to you it was. But whatever since you couldn't care less about us, fuckers.
And you. You know who you. I'm keeping you low because I have respect for you. And you should have the same thing for me. I don't care if you're so fly or whatever they call it. I don't care if you're the eye candy to every guy. But let me tell you one thing I care, your attitude. And it sucks. Maybe you said you were tryna bring something good out of a person by being sarcastic. Well, that's pure crap. Nobody does that. That's the stupidest thing I have ever heard in my 15 years of living. Now let me ask you, you like it when we do it to you? I believe not. And really, do you think when the two animals were being sarcastic to you, they cared for you? Definitely not. So don't use that as a reason.
If you say Shafiqa was influenced by someone because she wasn't her well, I'm sorry but you're certainly not her true friend. She has been feeling that way since forever just that we freaking cared so much about how you'd feel that we decided to zip it. You once said that I didn't stand up for you when they talked bad about you. Eh, what do you know? You weren't there to hear or witness anything! So can I say I'm standing for my rights now? Oh yes I can.
You don't have a friend's best interest at heart. You didn't know what I feel about you being close to ____. And you didn't notice me throwing hints that I didn't like you making friends with _____. I am disappointed in you too. You fucking used me. And sorry that word HAD to come out. Many times, I tried to put you first before me because I really cared. It was such a pity seeing you being disgraced by those animals. But again, you were the one who didn't stand up for me. So what if you were sad? So what if you were angry? If I can, you can. Still, you sat there with them and talked about how stupid I was to trust those animals. What would I feel? Ever thought of that? I just felt that you were going to treasure me and be my good friend. But you proved me wrong. YOU proved me wrong.
You are afraid. Yes, you are. You are afraid to leave us. You're not gonna miss us later on or have a hard time trying to forget the memories we all shared. You're just freaking afraid to go solo. Put your ego aside and tell us the truth. There was no need to say that you could go solo in school. Really. And you said that they could just take you back in. What the fuck are you tryna say? So what now? Are you using us? It was like telling us that you were afraid to go solo that was why you chose to get close with us! And now, when we're having a problem, you said they could accept you back. Explain babe.
You know, if I were to go on, this won't stop. I'm just gonna stop talking about you. And up to you if you wanna accept this or not. But let me remind you. You chose to leave, so be it. Don't try to be all goody two shoes so that people will sympathise you. It doesn't work anymore. You get what you say. Peace.
Now, I'm not saying that nothing is my fault and I have never backstabbed any of you. I admit I did. And I'm sorry.
Effah & Hidayah: I just hated the fact that you guys look so snobbish and bratty. And you looked as if you didn't like us being around you. But heck, that was the past. We're fine now, aren't we?
Noura: I didn't really talk about you. In fact, I already told you what I talked about you. Another thing is, I know you're up to the "I only want a boyfriend at 18" but you know, sometimes, love comes and you just can't stop it. So yeah. That's about it.
Nazrah: I guess you know what I'm gonna say. Maybe you should just chill out and not take anything seriously. And really, you should try understanding what a person would feel. I mean, you did but try harder babe. And your tone, keep it soft and steady. Don't be too harsh *winks* I love you.
Shafiqa: Oh this one. This one I hate most. Hehe, babe. As far as I could remember, I didn't talk about you. (: I love you too and please don't ever forget to love me back, twinnie. *kiss*
Yanti & Fateha: HAHA! How can I talk about them? They're so quiet when it comes to these things. Chill babes, I'm totally fine with you guys. Hee.
Adilah: Speechless babe. You never changed. Keep up the show. 3 words definitely; I hate you.
So I guess, good things never last aye? Too much of everything can make you sick, the saying goes. I guess I'm sick now. Peace - again.
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Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
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