Happy ever after never exist. Even after you are married to the ones you (think) are fated with. Even after having scores of daughters and sons. Life is crap. It's bitchy. But that's not the reason for us to give up life. Once in a blue moon, surely you'll receive a brighter gift. And yeah, I'm taking my N's this year. I'm not gonna let this affect my studies.

I don't understand why 18 year olds go for old man. Is it for their money? Or their looks (ew)? Especially when she knows that the guy is not clean. As in, he had sex before for God's sake and he's a father of three! Have a sense of sympathy will ya? Will you freaking like it if your dad's having an affair? You'd be heartless if you said you're fine with it. Omg, sucha prostitute. Your not that ugly till the extend of going for an old man right?

Okay maybe I'll understand if that old man happens to be rich. Billionaire. But he's just an average!

Just as I thought having a life without a boyfriend would be much more peaceful (no misunderstanding between parents and self, no jealousy, no scandalism, parents still see you as an angel, etc), something came up. And now I regretted listening to you. Taking in your advices when you're not taking in yours.

I mean c'mon. Must life get any worser? What a day to start with, seriously. Maybe Matiin won't feel a thing about it. He's young. But hello, you got big girls! Your daughters are old enough to think. And what are you lacking of in the mother? She gave you all her support, all her love. Non stop, without fail. What is in that girl that the mother doesn't have? You didn't just spoil my day here. You spoiled our day! And don't you feel guilty for the tears that mother has shed for you? Not a single bit?

Think of the days you weren't there for us. For her.

"After all the things you put her through, still she come right back
But now she knows the truth, I can finally see
You only want her when you're lonely
If said she's gonna leave, that's the only time
you want her"

- Bruno Mars

Don't blame her for acting this way. You mould her into that kind of person, you be responsible. I'm just disappointed. Very disappointed. Enough said.

Happy ever after never exist. Even after you are married to the ones you (think) are fated with. Even after having scores of daughters and sons. Life is crap. It's bitchy. But that's not the reason for us to give up life. Once in a blue moon, surely you'll receive a brighter gift. And yeah, I'm taking my N's this year. I'm not gonna let this affect my studies.

I don't understand why 18 year olds go for old man. Is it for their money? Or their looks (ew)? Especially when she knows that the guy is not clean. As in, he had sex before for God's sake and he's a father of three! Have a sense of sympathy will ya? Will you freaking like it if your dad's having an affair? You'd be heartless if you said you're fine with it. Omg, sucha prostitute. Your not that ugly till the extend of going for an old man right?

Okay maybe I'll understand if that old man happens to be rich. Billionaire. But he's just an average!

Just as I thought having a life without a boyfriend would be much more peaceful (no misunderstanding between parents and self, no jealousy, no scandalism, parents still see you as an angel, etc), something came up. And now I regretted listening to you. Taking in your advices when you're not taking in yours.

I mean c'mon. Must life get any worser? What a day to start with, seriously. Maybe Matiin won't feel a thing about it. He's young. But hello, you got big girls! Your daughters are old enough to think. And what are you lacking of in the mother? She gave you all her support, all her love. Non stop, without fail. What is in that girl that the mother doesn't have? You didn't just spoil my day here. You spoiled our day! And don't you feel guilty for the tears that mother has shed for you? Not a single bit?

Think of the days you weren't there for us. For her.

"After all the things you put her through, still she come right back
But now she knows the truth, I can finally see
You only want her when you're lonely
If said she's gonna leave, that's the only time
you want her"

- Bruno Mars

Don't blame her for acting this way. You mould her into that kind of person, you be responsible. I'm just disappointed. Very disappointed. Enough said.

Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist. Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan." I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited. I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5. Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine. I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time. Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever. The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D

My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more! When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public. I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd. I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh. I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body. Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts. I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.

I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right? I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool. My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt. Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.