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Written on Wednesday, December 19, 2007 @ 3:05 AM
readers, its been the saddest moment, not day, of my life . since the break up, everything i tell ya, was upside down . and, that totally freaking sucks ! like, a lot ! ok fine, i'm over . and dammie, sadly, there's no more illa love hakeem stuffs . geddit ? its all my fault . fine, i accepted it . i flirt, i suck, i am totally a freaking idiot ! ok ? people, i hate it when u didn't accept all my compliments . fine ! then dont accept it . be modest for the rest of ur life . and, if i tell you, youre gorgeous, it means yes you are ! i'm really really sorry . for not updating . its been tough . just one day . wow . and, that maniaac, he suck balls . ugh ! BIG FCUK --> A**** .
lamelamelamelamelame ! everything changed . i kindda fought with kak inna . for calling me an idiot, babi and all hurting stuff . i geddit alright ! i know i am . i know i suck, and i know u dont . i am just the freaking lame asshole . stucked in this freaking lame life with nothing meaningful in it . and youre the miss/mr popularity with the big house, lots of fans, gorgeous stuffs . i know, i geddit . fine ! and now, maybe, ashiqin . and hariz . i fought with them too . luckily, dammie's still there . and thank god, she still survive . kak inna hates each and every of my friend .
i became crazy ystd night . watching tv, laughing to myself, and cried . what the hell happened ? no life girl . and guess what ? i cant even sleep . great . loving it a lot ! its over now . between me and him . nothing else . and im tryna' forget everything he said to me that i thought was once meaningful . really . those words were the sweetest stuffs i have ever heard in my whole bloody life ! and now, i have to pretend . pretend nothing happened . and i miss talking to him till late at night . i admit it . and i felt stupid when i keep on touching and holding my phone just to wait for him to call . forget it, he said . hakeem, i am trying ! ok ? i feel like not eating and sleeping . and just have the boring life until everyone is fed up with me and fade away . making myself suffer is the best suicide . uhuh . i shld get to my old way . the old me ! the old me, which means the bad me . people said, they hated the old me . fine, i want people to hate me . woww .. im lame . its not as if all of you gonna make me happy . in fact, everyone tried to make me laugh . but, naah . i didn't . u knw why i want to go back to my old life ? the minah me ? because .. this me, people said behaves like him . and this me, is a freaking lame shit !
ugh ! how i wish i dont exist .
to hakeem, i have a blog . yeah . a long time ago . but decided not to tell u till we break up . i only update when the best thing happened . that is why, theres a little post . i still keep the green tea bottle u treat me the first time we met, u know . but, i threw it away, already . sorry . i wanted to keep but its not right . ur a good guy laa . playboy, eyy ? im sorry if ure angry with me for not telling u he contacted me . he, aidil . i just dont wanna ruin ur friendship thats all . and, i have no feelings for aidil . i swear . and thanks, for telling me, guys are very dangerous . well, i kindda promise to myself to iqa i wont have anymore bfs after u . i know that sounds gile but really . i have ever told her that . theres some reason why . but she didnt asked me to promise . so now, im gonna concentrate on my life and my future . nothing else . future as in not the who is gonna be ur husband what suckish stuff . lovey dovey stuffs . nehh ~
so now, who is next ? ur next gf ? the sec 3 girl you've been talking bout ? she sounds great . and thanks . i know i'm a bitch . this is not sarcastic . im really convinced . that im a bitch . btw, thanks for all those words, huh ? too bad i cant keep it . whatever it is, good luck in ur next relationship and last long . im not gonna hate ur gfs like how isya did . really . oh, u can patch with her kan ? so u got like 30 exs ? wow . bravo, playboy . i think thats all huh ? goodbye . and im freaking guilty for breaking ur heart . i didnt mean it . and please, dont be enemies . i read ur blog (:
ILLA SYAKILAH♥ Labels: like u said, so long .
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Written on Wednesday, December 19, 2007 @ 3:05 AM
readers, its been the saddest moment, not day, of my life . since the break up, everything i tell ya, was upside down . and, that totally freaking sucks ! like, a lot ! ok fine, i'm over . and dammie, sadly, there's no more illa love hakeem stuffs . geddit ? its all my fault . fine, i accepted it . i flirt, i suck, i am totally a freaking idiot ! ok ? people, i hate it when u didn't accept all my compliments . fine ! then dont accept it . be modest for the rest of ur life . and, if i tell you, youre gorgeous, it means yes you are ! i'm really really sorry . for not updating . its been tough . just one day . wow . and, that maniaac, he suck balls . ugh ! BIG FCUK --> A**** .
lamelamelamelamelame ! everything changed . i kindda fought with kak inna . for calling me an idiot, babi and all hurting stuff . i geddit alright ! i know i am . i know i suck, and i know u dont . i am just the freaking lame asshole . stucked in this freaking lame life with nothing meaningful in it . and youre the miss/mr popularity with the big house, lots of fans, gorgeous stuffs . i know, i geddit . fine ! and now, maybe, ashiqin . and hariz . i fought with them too . luckily, dammie's still there . and thank god, she still survive . kak inna hates each and every of my friend .
i became crazy ystd night . watching tv, laughing to myself, and cried . what the hell happened ? no life girl . and guess what ? i cant even sleep . great . loving it a lot ! its over now . between me and him . nothing else . and im tryna' forget everything he said to me that i thought was once meaningful . really . those words were the sweetest stuffs i have ever heard in my whole bloody life ! and now, i have to pretend . pretend nothing happened . and i miss talking to him till late at night . i admit it . and i felt stupid when i keep on touching and holding my phone just to wait for him to call . forget it, he said . hakeem, i am trying ! ok ? i feel like not eating and sleeping . and just have the boring life until everyone is fed up with me and fade away . making myself suffer is the best suicide . uhuh . i shld get to my old way . the old me ! the old me, which means the bad me . people said, they hated the old me . fine, i want people to hate me . woww .. im lame . its not as if all of you gonna make me happy . in fact, everyone tried to make me laugh . but, naah . i didn't . u knw why i want to go back to my old life ? the minah me ? because .. this me, people said behaves like him . and this me, is a freaking lame shit !
ugh ! how i wish i dont exist .
to hakeem, i have a blog . yeah . a long time ago . but decided not to tell u till we break up . i only update when the best thing happened . that is why, theres a little post . i still keep the green tea bottle u treat me the first time we met, u know . but, i threw it away, already . sorry . i wanted to keep but its not right . ur a good guy laa . playboy, eyy ? im sorry if ure angry with me for not telling u he contacted me . he, aidil . i just dont wanna ruin ur friendship thats all . and, i have no feelings for aidil . i swear . and thanks, for telling me, guys are very dangerous . well, i kindda promise to myself to iqa i wont have anymore bfs after u . i know that sounds gile but really . i have ever told her that . theres some reason why . but she didnt asked me to promise . so now, im gonna concentrate on my life and my future . nothing else . future as in not the who is gonna be ur husband what suckish stuff . lovey dovey stuffs . nehh ~
so now, who is next ? ur next gf ? the sec 3 girl you've been talking bout ? she sounds great . and thanks . i know i'm a bitch . this is not sarcastic . im really convinced . that im a bitch . btw, thanks for all those words, huh ? too bad i cant keep it . whatever it is, good luck in ur next relationship and last long . im not gonna hate ur gfs like how isya did . really . oh, u can patch with her kan ? so u got like 30 exs ? wow . bravo, playboy . i think thats all huh ? goodbye . and im freaking guilty for breaking ur heart . i didnt mean it . and please, dont be enemies . i read ur blog (:
ILLA SYAKILAH♥ Labels: like u said, so long .
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Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
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