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Written on Monday, February 8, 2010 @ 10:44 AM
I don't know how else to run away from misery. It seems to keep on running back to me. Currently, in school. I was supposed to do research for coursework but Mdm H took more than a period to lecture us so there's not really much time for us to do research. We're left with minutes and F&N lessons are done.
Today, I found out the most most most heart breaking thing and I don't know how I am supposed to react but I know I am feeling real down with myself.
Cousins have tried their best to console me but I don't think I deserve any of these. I feel like a bastard and I regret everything I have done. It's so hard for me to move on yet so easy for him to move on. I wonder how most guys move on so fast. But whatever, I'm happy as long as he's happy(: Thanks to the two cousins, anyway.
How else can I change his mindset? ): Ahhh. Fuck. I think I still love him.
Oh and yesterday, ______ asked me to be his girlfriend. But I didn't answer. And now everytime I look at him, I feel so awkward. I find myself dragging myself to school nowadays.
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Written on Monday, February 8, 2010 @ 10:44 AM
I don't know how else to run away from misery. It seems to keep on running back to me. Currently, in school. I was supposed to do research for coursework but Mdm H took more than a period to lecture us so there's not really much time for us to do research. We're left with minutes and F&N lessons are done.
Today, I found out the most most most heart breaking thing and I don't know how I am supposed to react but I know I am feeling real down with myself.
Cousins have tried their best to console me but I don't think I deserve any of these. I feel like a bastard and I regret everything I have done. It's so hard for me to move on yet so easy for him to move on. I wonder how most guys move on so fast. But whatever, I'm happy as long as he's happy(: Thanks to the two cousins, anyway.
How else can I change his mindset? ): Ahhh. Fuck. I think I still love him.
Oh and yesterday, ______ asked me to be his girlfriend. But I didn't answer. And now everytime I look at him, I feel so awkward. I find myself dragging myself to school nowadays.
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Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
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It's always this late, right?
School sucks today
Again and again
I AM STILL AWAKE.
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