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Written on Sunday, February 28, 2010 @ 2:53 AM
Supporter count: 4
Let's get some things about WAB and SBB off my chest. You guys are totally ego, so whatever. You want it so desperately? Go ahead. We'll see who hates who later. Maybe what my friend said was right. Maybe I should summon some confidence and tell you guys off. But it's okay, I'll make it a big surprise one day.
Karma works. Without me having to do anything, it'll all be running back to you. Let's see the list off things you've done that we have been observing closely. Okay fine, maybe only the three of us noticed your bitchiness. But hey, check the supporter count (:
Number 1; you have successfully brainwashed the weaker ones single-handedly but that does not mean you can do the same to us. We aren't puppets who stand up for you every time you lose. Hey, you wanna win so much? Work for it. Don't make people fight for YOUR battle. After all, no pain no gain.
Number 2; what? You wanna know our secrets? Oh gosh, do you even know the definition of ashamed? Oh wait, I guess your English is bloody good we don't even need to explain. Let's get this straight, if nobody tells you anything, just zip that smelly mouth of yours. I don't wanna see your humungous and yellow teeth.
Number 3; oh, I'm sorry things didn't work out the way you wanted it to be. Really, I am. Not. Please, what makes you think I wanna listen to each and every word that comes out from your mouth when I don't even listen to my mom's? Ha ha. Miss Perfect? Miss second-rate, more like. We don't only think about your feelings in this world. Wake up, bitch. This isn't your world.
Number 4; wait, are you tryna make me jealous when you know I'm super sensitive about these things/topic? God, what an angel. You expect us to take care of your small, cold heart when you can freely stomp on ours? Sorry, we're not your other puppets.
Number 5; awww, are you sad? You feel guilty reading this? Don't be. It already happened. Your a bitch, accept the fact. Say whaaaaat? Us? Buy you flowers to console you and lighten your heart? Go fuck yourself. Don't expect us to do these things to you when you don't even care about us when we feel this way. Matter fact, you even pulled those puppets of yours to not entertain us.
Number 6; is it me or is it you who's seeking attention? Oh wait, it's you. Big time asshole. Cherish what you have. Not everything is yours. And one more thing, don't ever go for guys according to what they have and what they are. Seriously, pathetic.
Number 7; me? Busybody? Please. I've known that guy way longer before you did. So, I have the right to like him first. And I am not like you, I'm original. Okay? Good.
Number 8; baby, don't make friends by buying them. It'll never last. Stop over-doing your kindness. I'm getting sick of it. Really. Cause sooner or later, you'd ask for a return. Correct? Correct.
Lastly, it's okay. You can say sorry. I'm always there to forgive you cause you know why? We're too used to getting bitched by you again! Slut.
Ok done. I'm just gonna let go of it now and take some rest. I've been busy the whole week and Sunday's my only day at home. That too, I have to do my research. By the way, I'm not gonna mention names. You know who you are. If you read this and you feel guilty, well, so be it. I won't mention names. Siapa yang makan chilli, dialah yang terasa pedasnya. Goodnight all.
Written on Thursday, February 25, 2010 @ 12:11 AM
I CAN'T STOP THINKING BOUT THIS. I WANT YOU BACK! AND I'M NOT GIVING UP UNTIL YOU KNOW IT.
and that's how much i love you ):
Written on Wednesday, February 24, 2010 @ 11:15 PM
Maybe I am happy to see him happy. However, knowing the fact that every time he hold his phone to text, it's his girlfriend it hurts me. But I'm getting used to this feeling already. So far this is the longest I've ever waited for some guy.
I just hope he'll last long with her(: Insya'Allah.
Written on Tuesday, February 23, 2010 @ 12:13 AM
It is confirmed. The answer came right out of his own mouth, straight to my face. I heard everything clearly. And there's nothing else I could do but to try to move on. I need help, I don't know how to go on. He's everything I ever wanted.
No more tears are left for me to cry. I have cried enough. And I deserve to cry, don't I? I totally abused his trust last time. It's a lesson for me to learn. But to accept the fact that he is with someone new and replacing you, it is so heart piercing. I keep on imagining him hugging her the way he hugged me and all. Even now, my heart's sinking trying to explain.
That's it. I need some cheering up. Anyone? (:
Next Saturday, there's a Chingay Fiesta @ Tampines and Purbanira Seni will be performing. Yan will attend her dikir while I go for SW practice first. After that, the plan goes like this: Yan and I will meet up at city hall around 4pm(?) and then we'll go to the venue. Wahh, busy eh kita. Rush sini, rush sana.
Anyways, thanks to Ms Dior. She should know for what laa ehh. Without her, I would have still be hanging out here hoping for a stray of hope to shine on me.
Today's ASp was dead boring. We talked, as usual, did a little of our work and since we're in an air-conditioned room, we slept. Haha. ASP ends at 4.30pm and we proceeded to our pre-heats. Which ended around 6plus? Yan lost her wallet and as a good amd caring sister (hehe), I accompanied her back home. We walked all the way from school to our respective apartment blocks.
That's about it. Sorry I didn't update for like ______ and yea, this is all I have. Not in such a great mood. Thanks to Acap Bestie for the cheering up too(:
Written on Monday, February 8, 2010 @ 10:44 AM
I don't know how else to run away from misery. It seems to keep on running back to me. Currently, in school. I was supposed to do research for coursework but Mdm H took more than a period to lecture us so there's not really much time for us to do research. We're left with minutes and F&N lessons are done.
Today, I found out the most most most heart breaking thing and I don't know how I am supposed to react but I know I am feeling real down with myself.
Cousins have tried their best to console me but I don't think I deserve any of these. I feel like a bastard and I regret everything I have done. It's so hard for me to move on yet so easy for him to move on. I wonder how most guys move on so fast. But whatever, I'm happy as long as he's happy(: Thanks to the two cousins, anyway.
How else can I change his mindset? ): Ahhh. Fuck. I think I still love him.
Oh and yesterday, ______ asked me to be his girlfriend. But I didn't answer. And now everytime I look at him, I feel so awkward. I find myself dragging myself to school nowadays.
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Written on Sunday, February 28, 2010 @ 2:53 AM
Supporter count: 4
Let's get some things about WAB and SBB off my chest. You guys are totally ego, so whatever. You want it so desperately? Go ahead. We'll see who hates who later. Maybe what my friend said was right. Maybe I should summon some confidence and tell you guys off. But it's okay, I'll make it a big surprise one day.
Karma works. Without me having to do anything, it'll all be running back to you. Let's see the list off things you've done that we have been observing closely. Okay fine, maybe only the three of us noticed your bitchiness. But hey, check the supporter count (:
Number 1; you have successfully brainwashed the weaker ones single-handedly but that does not mean you can do the same to us. We aren't puppets who stand up for you every time you lose. Hey, you wanna win so much? Work for it. Don't make people fight for YOUR battle. After all, no pain no gain.
Number 2; what? You wanna know our secrets? Oh gosh, do you even know the definition of ashamed? Oh wait, I guess your English is bloody good we don't even need to explain. Let's get this straight, if nobody tells you anything, just zip that smelly mouth of yours. I don't wanna see your humungous and yellow teeth.
Number 3; oh, I'm sorry things didn't work out the way you wanted it to be. Really, I am. Not. Please, what makes you think I wanna listen to each and every word that comes out from your mouth when I don't even listen to my mom's? Ha ha. Miss Perfect? Miss second-rate, more like. We don't only think about your feelings in this world. Wake up, bitch. This isn't your world.
Number 4; wait, are you tryna make me jealous when you know I'm super sensitive about these things/topic? God, what an angel. You expect us to take care of your small, cold heart when you can freely stomp on ours? Sorry, we're not your other puppets.
Number 5; awww, are you sad? You feel guilty reading this? Don't be. It already happened. Your a bitch, accept the fact. Say whaaaaat? Us? Buy you flowers to console you and lighten your heart? Go fuck yourself. Don't expect us to do these things to you when you don't even care about us when we feel this way. Matter fact, you even pulled those puppets of yours to not entertain us.
Number 6; is it me or is it you who's seeking attention? Oh wait, it's you. Big time asshole. Cherish what you have. Not everything is yours. And one more thing, don't ever go for guys according to what they have and what they are. Seriously, pathetic.
Number 7; me? Busybody? Please. I've known that guy way longer before you did. So, I have the right to like him first. And I am not like you, I'm original. Okay? Good.
Number 8; baby, don't make friends by buying them. It'll never last. Stop over-doing your kindness. I'm getting sick of it. Really. Cause sooner or later, you'd ask for a return. Correct? Correct.
Lastly, it's okay. You can say sorry. I'm always there to forgive you cause you know why? We're too used to getting bitched by you again! Slut.
Ok done. I'm just gonna let go of it now and take some rest. I've been busy the whole week and Sunday's my only day at home. That too, I have to do my research. By the way, I'm not gonna mention names. You know who you are. If you read this and you feel guilty, well, so be it. I won't mention names. Siapa yang makan chilli, dialah yang terasa pedasnya. Goodnight all.
Written on Thursday, February 25, 2010 @ 12:11 AM
I CAN'T STOP THINKING BOUT THIS. I WANT YOU BACK! AND I'M NOT GIVING UP UNTIL YOU KNOW IT.
and that's how much i love you ):
Written on Wednesday, February 24, 2010 @ 11:15 PM
Maybe I am happy to see him happy. However, knowing the fact that every time he hold his phone to text, it's his girlfriend it hurts me. But I'm getting used to this feeling already. So far this is the longest I've ever waited for some guy.
I just hope he'll last long with her(: Insya'Allah.
Written on Tuesday, February 23, 2010 @ 12:13 AM
It is confirmed. The answer came right out of his own mouth, straight to my face. I heard everything clearly. And there's nothing else I could do but to try to move on. I need help, I don't know how to go on. He's everything I ever wanted.
No more tears are left for me to cry. I have cried enough. And I deserve to cry, don't I? I totally abused his trust last time. It's a lesson for me to learn. But to accept the fact that he is with someone new and replacing you, it is so heart piercing. I keep on imagining him hugging her the way he hugged me and all. Even now, my heart's sinking trying to explain.
That's it. I need some cheering up. Anyone? (:
Next Saturday, there's a Chingay Fiesta @ Tampines and Purbanira Seni will be performing. Yan will attend her dikir while I go for SW practice first. After that, the plan goes like this: Yan and I will meet up at city hall around 4pm(?) and then we'll go to the venue. Wahh, busy eh kita. Rush sini, rush sana.
Anyways, thanks to Ms Dior. She should know for what laa ehh. Without her, I would have still be hanging out here hoping for a stray of hope to shine on me.
Today's ASp was dead boring. We talked, as usual, did a little of our work and since we're in an air-conditioned room, we slept. Haha. ASP ends at 4.30pm and we proceeded to our pre-heats. Which ended around 6plus? Yan lost her wallet and as a good amd caring sister (hehe), I accompanied her back home. We walked all the way from school to our respective apartment blocks.
That's about it. Sorry I didn't update for like ______ and yea, this is all I have. Not in such a great mood. Thanks to Acap Bestie for the cheering up too(:
Written on Monday, February 8, 2010 @ 10:44 AM
I don't know how else to run away from misery. It seems to keep on running back to me. Currently, in school. I was supposed to do research for coursework but Mdm H took more than a period to lecture us so there's not really much time for us to do research. We're left with minutes and F&N lessons are done.
Today, I found out the most most most heart breaking thing and I don't know how I am supposed to react but I know I am feeling real down with myself.
Cousins have tried their best to console me but I don't think I deserve any of these. I feel like a bastard and I regret everything I have done. It's so hard for me to move on yet so easy for him to move on. I wonder how most guys move on so fast. But whatever, I'm happy as long as he's happy(: Thanks to the two cousins, anyway.
How else can I change his mindset? ): Ahhh. Fuck. I think I still love him.
Oh and yesterday, ______ asked me to be his girlfriend. But I didn't answer. And now everytime I look at him, I feel so awkward. I find myself dragging myself to school nowadays.
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Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist.
Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan."
I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited.
I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5.
Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine.
I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time.
Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever.
The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D
My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more!
When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public.
I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd.
I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh.
I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body.
Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts.
I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.
I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right?
I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool.
My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt.
Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.
Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.
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Here I am
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
i promise.
I feel like our world's been infected.
Quick Update ♥
It was almost perfect ):
You still are. And I still am.
Let's just hope he'd read this.
Yes, that's true.
I am very exhausted
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