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Story About Friends Dailies Chat

Written on Saturday, May 3, 2008 @ 12:43 PM

oh god. help me. i feel so.. bad. how do i tell him, i hate him? i dont want to be his girlfriend. but he's so extremely nice towards me. well, i dont hate him. each & everyday, since he knew me, he kept on saying, i love you, when i ask why, he will just say, feelings just come & it is still getting heavier. i dont hate him, i just dont have feelings for him. he just cant understand. or perhaps im too young for a serious relationship. everyday, he waited for me to tell him something he wanted to hear. but, i ditched him away. im really truly sorry. but, i dont wanna lose our friendship.

i can't keep this feeling no more. sooner or later; i gotta tell him bout this. im just nervous about how it will turn out. did i make a wise decision? come on illa. you got to gather all your guts & tell him. you can't hide this feeling anymore. let it break free. i gotta do this. no matter what happens. good or bad; this is the only solution. im sorry.

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Hello human beings. My name is Illa Syakilah and I am not a terrorist. Hehe. I can't seem to get over that quote since I watched the movie "My name is Khan." I am coming sixteen this July 25 and I'm seriously not excited. I'll be sitting for my GCE N Levels this year, and hopefully (very little chance, though) I'll qualify for Sec 5. Maybe for now, you'll have fun teasing me but keep in mind that everyone has limits. And don't ever think of going over mine. I am single and I don't wish to be unavailable because I believe that love comes naturally when it's the right time. Honestly, since the last time I ever got into a relationship, I realised that I'm kinda lethargic when it comes to love but whatever. The right one will fall not only for my perfection but also my flaws, right? Yeah :D

My interest lies in Performing Arts. I have been dancing for close to 10 years and damn it, I want to learn more! When I'm feeling down or high, this is basically what I'd do. Just that when I'm down, I don't do it in public. I dance for Purbanira Seni (my school Malay Dance troupe) and Sri Warisan Som Said Performing Arts Ltd. I'm not a professional YET. But one day, I'll be an awesome one. Yes ah! I have yet to cover contemporary and such. Heh. I get dance routines from boredom or imagination. I'd literally think of steps in my head and when I'm done, I'd work it out with my body. Sometimes, I'd dance randomly and I'll get steps. Basically, I love everything that has got to do with Performing Arts. I miss Indian dancing when I was in Kindergarten. Oh, that makes it 11 years of dancing! Hehe.

I'm not shy to say that my favorite place that has ever existed is.. my bed. I'm not the only one right? I love to hang out but this year, I kinda find it hard to even make time for my friends! I love Glee. It's so cool. My favorite boyfriend is Percy Jackson AKA Logan Lerman. Yes! I love him. Haha. Justin Bieber, his voice makes me melt. Megan Fox, Beyonce, Kara Dioguardi, Kelly Clarkson, Nicole Scherzinger, Jojo, Selena Gomez, Katy Perry, Jessica Alba & more. These are the people who never fail to make me love them.

Thank you for bothering to read, if you actually did, that is.

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